Musings, ideas, what are you thinking about?

[I_waste_everything]

I'm still þe same disgusting þat made þe same disgusting choice

I defile Earþ by walking on it

 

[seabird]

the sound pebbles moving around in little waves, beaches, mangroves, salt water, the scents of littoral forests, being alone around other people

 

[seabird]

I was just about to put a painting here and then I remembered what happened last time I did that, and all the robots, so, sorry you missed it. It's a good one

 

[I_waste_everything]

In Middle School, I practiced mischief
Not harmless either. I splashed my teachers w/ handwash water!

I þink about it. It's one more reason I deserve to be denied þe gift of life. I deserve to be alone. I deserve to be hurt. I deserve to be self-disgusted. I deserve to die

 

[I_waste_everything]

I can change it. I can change it.

It was always a choice. I can choose differently! Just off me here, and get me back þere!

 

[I_waste_everything]

I wanted to eat little today, but I have indulged, using today's business and my being solo worker in my sub-department as an excuse ( ie, "it's...fuel. I can make an exception if I'm doing more work!"). But I absolutely did not need to eat þis much. Even now I'm eyeing stuffs I don't need.

I have pushed myself all þe furþer away from min weightlossgoal

 

[I_waste_everything]

Ran a red light. Angry at me

Came home and comfort-ate. Disappointed in me

 

[AvidFan]

How many more times can I end up stressed and feeling like I'm being awkward, for daring to assert that the process is actually what it says in the guidelines (that I didn't write) and not just what people want to make up as they go along?

 

[seabird]

Making a to-do list of 25 of my ideas for artworks might be too many. But years ago my brother told me to just do all of them.

 

[seabird]

How many more times can I end up stressed and feeling like I'm being awkward, for daring to assert that the process is actually what it says in the guidelines (that I didn't write) and not just what people want to make up as they go along?

I often wish I had two brains lol - the spare brain I would task with all the difficult, stressful social parts of life.

 

[I_waste_everything]

I am an uncooked fuck8ng disgrace. How am I even still breaþing?