I often joke about not wanting to go to work, but now that I went from doing excellent all the way down to abysmal (it's much worse than poor because the rating I have is way below even the lowest rating of poor) I actually dread doing it. It will make my anxiety worse knowing I have to perform like a trained seal and try to make myself do excellent work on a regular basis, to be great when that's not always possible. It makes me just want to stay here, and not face it at all.