There is no way of knowing what was going on for some people, but do know one thing, this was NOT your fault...sometimes, we find ourselves in a place where words cannot describe what we are going through, or hesitate to write anything down because we do not want to burden others...and as TE said, maybe he did not want to say 'good-bye', but instead, had no way to express his pain...that is why sharing as we do here is so important...as Lefty said, there are so many people who have lost a loved one, and are so generous and gracious in their caring for others...I am so sorry for your loss...please continue to post and tell us what you are going through