I don't know what to do. I feel terrible and sad and started having serious suicide thoughts since his passing. No one expected this from him. The worst part is that his mom took her life as well, together. I just want to cry and cannot stop thinking about him. It hasn't even been 5 days yet. I just want to know why, knowing that I'll never get to know why. No one will ever know and it kills me. I just wish I could talk to him, so so much.