It was really helpful to have found this forum, it seems to me to be a very good resource to explore the subject without causing concern to those you are close to.
I wouldn't describe myself as in crisis, but I always like to have a 'get out plan' worked out and provided for and a date in mind.
What tends to happen is that something happens in life which results in me deciding to push back the 'deadline'.
The current plan is set for 'completion' in February 2012 and, if done correctly will involve no one else and not even require anyone to perform any kind on 'cleanup'.
This was paramount as I like the idea of leaving life without a trace without the usual conformities like a funeral /burial/ cremation.
I have had periods of crisis in the past and been diagnosed with anxiety and depression but have become very good at hiding it - anyone who didn't know me wouldn't have a clue and would no doubt describe me as a happy type of a person.
Those people wouldn't know I spend long hours researching the subject and contemplating the bigger questions, chief amongst which is:
1) If there is a point to life, what is it?
I am now in my early 50's, single, jobless and have no children, so I tick a good few boxes.
I have been in varying states of depression / heightened anxiety / low mood /despondent since puberty.
The main reason for hanging around this long was to avoid upsetting my parents, but as they have now passed on, I no longer have that excuse.
One or two of the few friends I have may be upset but I don't see that as a good enough reason to hang around, simply getting older and dying anyway.
I would describe my mood as 'neutral' most of the time and get very little pleasure from the things I used to.
I don't see what is so bad about making that decision - with one caveat.
I am not a religious person, but I do wonder about what, if anything, lies beyond.
I suppose I think that a person isn't (as far as we know) given a choice about whether they wanted to be born or not, so should they have a choice about how/when they pass on or should they leave it to fate?
These are just some of my thoughts about the subject, I welcome comments/questions or feedback.
Tom
An American Abroad
I wouldn't describe myself as in crisis, but I always like to have a 'get out plan' worked out and provided for and a date in mind.
What tends to happen is that something happens in life which results in me deciding to push back the 'deadline'.
The current plan is set for 'completion' in February 2012 and, if done correctly will involve no one else and not even require anyone to perform any kind on 'cleanup'.
This was paramount as I like the idea of leaving life without a trace without the usual conformities like a funeral /burial/ cremation.
I have had periods of crisis in the past and been diagnosed with anxiety and depression but have become very good at hiding it - anyone who didn't know me wouldn't have a clue and would no doubt describe me as a happy type of a person.
Those people wouldn't know I spend long hours researching the subject and contemplating the bigger questions, chief amongst which is:
1) If there is a point to life, what is it?
I am now in my early 50's, single, jobless and have no children, so I tick a good few boxes.
I have been in varying states of depression / heightened anxiety / low mood /despondent since puberty.
The main reason for hanging around this long was to avoid upsetting my parents, but as they have now passed on, I no longer have that excuse.
One or two of the few friends I have may be upset but I don't see that as a good enough reason to hang around, simply getting older and dying anyway.
I would describe my mood as 'neutral' most of the time and get very little pleasure from the things I used to.
I don't see what is so bad about making that decision - with one caveat.
I am not a religious person, but I do wonder about what, if anything, lies beyond.
I suppose I think that a person isn't (as far as we know) given a choice about whether they wanted to be born or not, so should they have a choice about how/when they pass on or should they leave it to fate?
These are just some of my thoughts about the subject, I welcome comments/questions or feedback.
Tom
An American Abroad