My sister has been deeply depressed her whole adult life, she's now 48. It appears by her texts she's getting ready to end her life, putting some affairs in order, etc. She has casually threatened suicide for the last few years. A text from last year "I doubt I'll make it to the end of the year", that sort of thing. We've been very close all our lives and she feels she can talk about anything with me but she gets very angry if I even hint I'm going to call the police. An acquaintance did this a couple years ago and she immediately cut him from her life.
She now lives in a state quite a distance from me. That makes it harder as I haven't seen her in several years. Though even if she did live here, she'd probably refuse to see me, she turned pretty anti social years and years ago. No telephone talk either. Just emails and texts.
We texted quite a bit last night. I told her how much I loved her and wished for a different outcome and such. She said last night "I loathe myself". She's living with an old boyfriend now and I don't think it's the best of relationships.
She's said for years she's one of those few that medication doesn't help. She HAS sought help since she was a college student and tried many drugs but nothing seems to work. Of course I dont' think she's tried every drug out there but she's given up. But I don't know anything much about her medication history but when I mention anything I'm trying, it's always something she's tried in the past.
My other sister and I suffer from depression and anxiety so I know how she feels but while we want to seek help and get better, she gave up years ago thinking anything will help. I can't force her to do anything. All I feel I can do is text her and tell her I love her. I don't know what else I can do. I feel it's inevitable. I don't think I'll feel very guilty if it happens because I really don't know what I can do to help her. What I do know is the grief will be unimaginable. I also have no coworkers or friends or even siblings I feel comfortable sharing this with.
She now lives in a state quite a distance from me. That makes it harder as I haven't seen her in several years. Though even if she did live here, she'd probably refuse to see me, she turned pretty anti social years and years ago. No telephone talk either. Just emails and texts.
We texted quite a bit last night. I told her how much I loved her and wished for a different outcome and such. She said last night "I loathe myself". She's living with an old boyfriend now and I don't think it's the best of relationships.
She's said for years she's one of those few that medication doesn't help. She HAS sought help since she was a college student and tried many drugs but nothing seems to work. Of course I dont' think she's tried every drug out there but she's given up. But I don't know anything much about her medication history but when I mention anything I'm trying, it's always something she's tried in the past.
My other sister and I suffer from depression and anxiety so I know how she feels but while we want to seek help and get better, she gave up years ago thinking anything will help. I can't force her to do anything. All I feel I can do is text her and tell her I love her. I don't know what else I can do. I feel it's inevitable. I don't think I'll feel very guilty if it happens because I really don't know what I can do to help her. What I do know is the grief will be unimaginable. I also have no coworkers or friends or even siblings I feel comfortable sharing this with.