Hello Rosiecat
I have not suffered a loss of family to suicide, but I have lost close friends. So I know there is a big difference, but I wanted to respond to you. Grieving is a long process. And everyone grieves differently. For me, it was a matter of one step at a time, one hour at a time until I could breathe again. You will never completely be the same, but it will get better. I am hoping that a mother who has lost a child can answer your question more thoroughly from experience. But know this is a supportive community of people who are in all levels of wellness and there is much support here. Let me say I am so sorry for your loss, it must be so difficult to lose a child. I hope you find solace.
Angie