i'm at a 9 I can't stand sit or lay down for more than a short time. it is only temporary I know this. I took my pain meds my breakthrough pain meds and may have to take even more. this happens almost every f@cking day and i'm tired of it. I feel so alone in this. only people that suffer chronic pain and severe pain can truly understand. I realize I have a lot of friends that truly care and some very close friends. there are a few that understand but I don't want to trigger them by telling the truth. today I actually figured out a way to end the pain but fought and am fighting it. how can I start at a 1 with normal pain 5 or 6 range and end up here? if only I could go for a few days with no or little pain I could maybe reset. but don't worry I will get the pain down again as I do every day, and be safe for another day, but what about tomorrow or the day after. I will lose this fight one day. I feel like i'm at the edge of a cliff all alone and can't let anybody pull me back for fear of them going over the cliff with me. those that know chronic and severe pain know what i'm talking about

. i'm lucky that no matter how bad the spikes get I can get the pain under control in 2 or 3 hours. thank you again for your concern and empathy...mike....