Please give me some advice

[Axee]

Hello, would like to ask for some advice here. I've been feeling very suicidal and tired these days to the point that having plans on how to do it is resurfacing. I've been suffering depression for 6 years now and I have tried to help myself despite the adults around me don't give af. I've worked and self sustained my self so I can buy my own meds for the belief of getting better.

I got a bit better for awhile but I'm back at it again and it's worse. I'm so tired to the point that my head hurts and I can't get myself to work anymore temporarily. Should I tell my parents that I want to off myself? I'm just so out of options sometimes I hope that with my condition someone was there to help me out because self sustaining myself can be hard to manage if I have depression. I'm just a bit scared you know since I might really do it.

 

[may71]

Sorry that you're going through this Axee.

Should I tell my parents that I want to off myself?

It depends. Often times that can be helpful, I think usually parents are concerned and supportive, but in at least some cases they can have negative reactions. Do you have any sense of how they might react?

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Hi, welcome to SF. I am sorry you’re struggling. Sounds like you have been working hard To survive.
Are your parents the adults that don’t give af? If you think your parents could help & support you, then talk with them. If you are actively suicidal, I think you should call for immediate help.

 

[may71]

Sometimes people benefit from an adjustment to their medication, either a dosage increase, or maybe trying a different medication.

Depending on where you live, there might be government services that could help you.

This link and the sub links (to pages on SF) might be helpful:

https://www.suicideforum.com/commun...iety-insomnia-pain-other-suicide-help.166835/

If you can't afford therapy, there are some books about treating depression that might be helpful. You might get some help from a CBT book in particular if negative self-talk is a factor in how you feel. This book is one of the most highly recommended CBT books for depression:

Mind Over Mood, Second Edition: Change How You Feel by Changing the Way You Think
Dennis Greenberger, Christine A. Padesky

 

[KM76710]

@Axee

Sad to hear about your depression and how things are not going well for you, but you are welcomed and have a place on this forum and it is a great place and members to get to know. You will find support here so I hope that you keep returning.