I know how you feel i would take drugs to if i wherent so damn money greedy.
You feel so bad that you need to take drugs, its strange how these 2 things are connected, only we that have been there see the connection.
Its nothing to be ashamed of, anyone can end up taking drugs. Im not gonna lecture you that drugs are bad, people fail to see is that people on drogs know it better than anyone.
I just hope you will get better.