I had my initial assessment appointment for gender dysphoria today. Pending i can convince the consultant, i'll get a diagnosis of gender dysphoria, that i can take to endocrinologist, and get started on HRT. I think the appointment went well. I was very ready for a lot of his questions and concerns.
But regardless, it was brutal.
"Oh, so you were suicidal? How many times did you try to kill yourself? How did you do it? Were you ever hospitalised? Oh, you had this psychotic episode? What happened there? Your mum died when you were ten? Tell me more. You were abused? Gonna have to get into that more in the follow-up"
Just an entire hour like that
I had to crack myself wide open, and be extremely raw and vulnerable. And i've been in the weirdest state since. I'm coping, in my own way. But yeah, suffice to say, as far as today is concerned, i'm not doing okay. I'll be fine tomorrow though, i'm sure.