i love cats, i love to take care of them, but i don't want my life to just revolve around them.
everyone in my age are doing well in life, traveling, nothing to worry but themselves...
i wish i could experience that but i don't know where or how, and i'm unsure of myself.
cats distract me from depression up to a certain point. lately, another cat outside died and it has been upsetting me... i don't want this, i know death is imminent but i want to be somewhere far from deaths of anyone and anything.
i love cats but i still get frustrated and stressed and don't want my life to be just about cats.
my parents don't approve of my personal interest, to them being the youngest in the family it is my obligation to land a job that pays well so i can help them and the entire family.
it feels selfish to want more in life other than cats.
i feel i shouldnt complain, i feel it's not right for me to feel this way.