Well, i've had a discussion with my transition officer and my dad, and basically, i have about a week left to decide if i'm going back to uni after the holidays - i have to be ready to do my exams. If i don't feel like i can do that, then i've basically been told i should start again next year. And i can pretty much guarantee that if i still feel like this, there's no way that's happening. I barely have the strength to get out of bed, let alone prep for and sit, like, 4 2hr+ exams. Another reason i wanted to cry today.
Anyway, point is, i'm staying at my dad's and if i decide not to go back, that will presumably be how we carry on, so i could transfer to a GP out here, it's a lot more rural and so they have a lot less patients, which means they may actually be able to make the time for me and give me some bloody answers.
I'm so frustrated at this whole situation, and i can't believe the incompetence that got me to this point.