I really want to be gone tonight so badly,what do you do when the only thing you're is constantly sad all the time and struggling badly?.I can't see the light never really have at all,I've tried to improve same old story but no improvement and am stuck at the same point as always.I can go on and on about the same old things,but it's hit me again today of course I'm better off dead,I'm no use alive seriously I'm not.
I've tried to gain the motivation to return to work but nothing at all works,tried to feel more positive but nothing either.Tries years of Therapy,tried years of many different meds,everything else you name it.Now I wonder why I'm writing this again no one wants to hear it really.Hospital hasn't seemed to help nor has shock treatment maybe it's just me that is hopeless and useless.I don't know what to do I thought for e.g going home to a nice warm house would make me feel more comfortable but who was I kidding.I'm just facing another night of uncertainty and if I get through it will be another day of it.
I've tried to gain the motivation to return to work but nothing at all works,tried to feel more positive but nothing either.Tries years of Therapy,tried years of many different meds,everything else you name it.Now I wonder why I'm writing this again no one wants to hear it really.Hospital hasn't seemed to help nor has shock treatment maybe it's just me that is hopeless and useless.I don't know what to do I thought for e.g going home to a nice warm house would make me feel more comfortable but who was I kidding.I'm just facing another night of uncertainty and if I get through it will be another day of it.