It does look better now but it’s not what I’d choose.. But what I’d choose sometimes doesn’t exist because I’m such a perfectionist and can be so indecisive I choose *nothing* o_O
Sometimes my answer to this question is - because killing yourself is really difficult and if you mess it up things could easily be worse.
A lot of the time my daughter is my answer, and my parents to a lesser extent, especially my dad.
Right now my answer is a clip from a Faith No More concert. Things like music that resonate with you on a level where you just go “fuck yeah”. I often think of the scene from Thelma and ****** where Thelma asks ****** if she’s awake.. It’s those moments that give me reason to live.