repressed attempt.

[crystaltears]

I am pretty sure I repressed an attempt at killing myself as a child.
I recalled it as I was just seeing what <Mod Edit:Method>
and now i am realizing with horror that I was so upset by my failure at this that i lied even to myself.
no real damage that I know of came out of it. and i tried to continue my day. but it was so fuzzy. before and after it happened. I dont know why?

I have so many repressed memories and I dont know how to get the help so i can remember them properly enough to move on.

 

[Bart]

Maybe moving on, by definition, means leaving repressed memories behind?

 

[crystaltears]

not when ones entire life is full of so many holes that old age would have taken less of my mind.
I am now forgetting simple tasks just because it was associated to a "bad memory".
have you forgotten how to open a door? have you forgotten how to hold a spoon? or how to zip a zipper?
in the last month I have briefly forgotten all of those. and every year i leave "holes" in my memories more of this happens...

not to mention the memories come out on their own. whether i like it or not. I just want to have them back on my terms.

I wish I could just leave them behind.

 

[DrownedFishOnFire]

Sometimes childhood memories are created by ourselves and didn't happen.