Wow thank you all so much for taking the time to respond. That really helps.
I didn't mean to seem inpatient about getting replies so I'm sorry if I seemed so. I've just tried to participate in other boards before and it seemed that whenever I posted everyone just lost interest and never replied so I thought there must be something about the way I wrote that put people off. If I do then I'd be happy to try to change.
Jordan - yes the world is just like high school. And adults who you think are professionals - doctors, lawyers, everybody - they are just people and most of them don't give a crap about doing their job and being fair and honest and helpful. Very disheartening. But that's life. People think it's funny to use their power over another to hurt them. Being cynical is how I cope. If I'm not cynical then I'm hurt over and over by corruption and dishonesty. If I'm cynical then I don't care because I know that's how it is.
About the drugs - I don't know - I just feel like I should try to fix myself without them. Maybe finding the right person to talk to who would validate me rather than ignore me and treat me like my problems are stupid and I'm insignifigant.
I have a couple of hangups about drugs too. I'm afraid to become dependant. Please no offense to people who take anti-depressants - If they help you that is so wonderful, I don't judge in the least I just am afraid of drugs. I've done some illegal drugs in the past - didn't like them thankfully so never got hooked. I use to drink alot though. It wasn't good. I was functioning - going to work and paying my bills - but I woldn't stop drinking when I knew I should, and I just wanted to it too badly. I quit drinking and don't really want to want anything that bad again. If that makes sense.
If I do talk to someone who will listen and prescribes meds I will come here and find out what you all have to say about them. Thank you for that advice.
Thank you for asking about my son. He is a very smart person. He was in oddysey all through school (it's for smart kids). Very well mannered and I thought happy, but I knew that his father not being there hurt him inside. His dad married a young girl who was jealous of him so she kept his dad away from him. Then my son married a drama diva who enjoyed infuriating him. She would take his keys so he couldn't go to work, or not come home to watch the kids so he could go to work. Just horrible. She just always wanted to keep something going. So now he has anger issues. He has had some dissappointments with relationships which makes him feel more hopeless. If he found a good woman he could be happy tho. I'm hoping for that. Normally I'd say "praying" but not sure I believe in that anymore....
My sister stole a very valuable account that was my mothers and was to be split between us. It was based in sweden to I couldn't get any information about it. They wouldn't talk to me because she had it put in her name. No one here knew anything about it. I spoke to 3 lawyers and several financial guys. It's like the account was a ghost. No one wanted to bother with helping me. It was purchased through a company that my mother worked for which was no longer in the area and I could not get any help calling their location in Texas. Brick walls is all I hit. And I tried for years.
My sister is a terribly evil person. She left her first husband for another man. Just left one day while he was at work and NEVER spoke to him again (that was 25 years ago). No closure for him. No reasoning. It messed him up pretty good. He never moved on with his life. I can't imagine how maddening it was. I think he's still waiting on her to come back and tell him what he did wrong. Then she stopped speaking to my father. For about 15 years before he died she acted like he was already dead. It broke his heart. I would tell her that he missed her and wanted to see her but she couldn't care less, then she kicked me to the curb and stole my money. She's truly evil. But I no longer believe that there are any consequences for being evil so it's not like she's going to hell or anything for ruining 3 lives.
I am just so lucky to have my wonderful husband. After so many years of being alone I finally found him and he has just been so wonderful. He was so concerned about me last night. He suggested I quit my job because it's so stressful and thankless. I work WAY to much and don't have any time to shop or get haircuts or enjoy life. Of course that won't change the fact taht the world is corrupt and the people in it are cruel but nothing will change that and if I can de-stress my life maybe I'll feel better about it. My husband is really amazing and I just wish everyone had a wonderful support like him. He's the only person in my life who has ever stuck by me. I was 38 when we met so sometimes you just have to wait.
Thank you so much for listening and helping. I feel a little better today. Maybe I'll eat something. Or not. Still wishing one of these tornados had sucked me up in it last night, but I don't want to hurt my husband.
I didn't mean to seem inpatient about getting replies so I'm sorry if I seemed so. I've just tried to participate in other boards before and it seemed that whenever I posted everyone just lost interest and never replied so I thought there must be something about the way I wrote that put people off. If I do then I'd be happy to try to change.
Jordan - yes the world is just like high school. And adults who you think are professionals - doctors, lawyers, everybody - they are just people and most of them don't give a crap about doing their job and being fair and honest and helpful. Very disheartening. But that's life. People think it's funny to use their power over another to hurt them. Being cynical is how I cope. If I'm not cynical then I'm hurt over and over by corruption and dishonesty. If I'm cynical then I don't care because I know that's how it is.
About the drugs - I don't know - I just feel like I should try to fix myself without them. Maybe finding the right person to talk to who would validate me rather than ignore me and treat me like my problems are stupid and I'm insignifigant.
I have a couple of hangups about drugs too. I'm afraid to become dependant. Please no offense to people who take anti-depressants - If they help you that is so wonderful, I don't judge in the least I just am afraid of drugs. I've done some illegal drugs in the past - didn't like them thankfully so never got hooked. I use to drink alot though. It wasn't good. I was functioning - going to work and paying my bills - but I woldn't stop drinking when I knew I should, and I just wanted to it too badly. I quit drinking and don't really want to want anything that bad again. If that makes sense.
If I do talk to someone who will listen and prescribes meds I will come here and find out what you all have to say about them. Thank you for that advice.
Thank you for asking about my son. He is a very smart person. He was in oddysey all through school (it's for smart kids). Very well mannered and I thought happy, but I knew that his father not being there hurt him inside. His dad married a young girl who was jealous of him so she kept his dad away from him. Then my son married a drama diva who enjoyed infuriating him. She would take his keys so he couldn't go to work, or not come home to watch the kids so he could go to work. Just horrible. She just always wanted to keep something going. So now he has anger issues. He has had some dissappointments with relationships which makes him feel more hopeless. If he found a good woman he could be happy tho. I'm hoping for that. Normally I'd say "praying" but not sure I believe in that anymore....
My sister stole a very valuable account that was my mothers and was to be split between us. It was based in sweden to I couldn't get any information about it. They wouldn't talk to me because she had it put in her name. No one here knew anything about it. I spoke to 3 lawyers and several financial guys. It's like the account was a ghost. No one wanted to bother with helping me. It was purchased through a company that my mother worked for which was no longer in the area and I could not get any help calling their location in Texas. Brick walls is all I hit. And I tried for years.
My sister is a terribly evil person. She left her first husband for another man. Just left one day while he was at work and NEVER spoke to him again (that was 25 years ago). No closure for him. No reasoning. It messed him up pretty good. He never moved on with his life. I can't imagine how maddening it was. I think he's still waiting on her to come back and tell him what he did wrong. Then she stopped speaking to my father. For about 15 years before he died she acted like he was already dead. It broke his heart. I would tell her that he missed her and wanted to see her but she couldn't care less, then she kicked me to the curb and stole my money. She's truly evil. But I no longer believe that there are any consequences for being evil so it's not like she's going to hell or anything for ruining 3 lives.
I am just so lucky to have my wonderful husband. After so many years of being alone I finally found him and he has just been so wonderful. He was so concerned about me last night. He suggested I quit my job because it's so stressful and thankless. I work WAY to much and don't have any time to shop or get haircuts or enjoy life. Of course that won't change the fact taht the world is corrupt and the people in it are cruel but nothing will change that and if I can de-stress my life maybe I'll feel better about it. My husband is really amazing and I just wish everyone had a wonderful support like him. He's the only person in my life who has ever stuck by me. I was 38 when we met so sometimes you just have to wait.
Thank you so much for listening and helping. I feel a little better today. Maybe I'll eat something. Or not. Still wishing one of these tornados had sucked me up in it last night, but I don't want to hurt my husband.