tonight i just cant settle.
my anxiety is at such a high point!!
i tried to get some sleep [as its now 3.30am]
but i couldnt settle. and i was crying. and i started thinking too much about this girl who i now hate. and my anxiety shot up, and i could hardly breathe.
i started thinking about taking sleeping tablets. and overdosing on them.
fuck its scares me when im like this.
and the other night i was in a club, and i was really paranoid and felt shit about myself, and i saw some broken glass on the floor, and i just had images going round and round my head of me slitting my wrists. in the end i had to kick the glass away from myself.
i fear im just losing control of myself.
gosh. i cant live like this any longer.
my anxiety is at such a high point!!
i tried to get some sleep [as its now 3.30am]
but i couldnt settle. and i was crying. and i started thinking too much about this girl who i now hate. and my anxiety shot up, and i could hardly breathe.
i started thinking about taking sleeping tablets. and overdosing on them.
fuck its scares me when im like this.
and the other night i was in a club, and i was really paranoid and felt shit about myself, and i saw some broken glass on the floor, and i just had images going round and round my head of me slitting my wrists. in the end i had to kick the glass away from myself.
i fear im just losing control of myself.
gosh. i cant live like this any longer.