I know this is probably going to sound stupid but it's something I think about a lot. Here's the thing, I'm gay. I really like men, but ever since I was young I was really fascinated with the female body. I love women's clothes, their bodies and their makeup.
To look at me in person you wouldn't suspect. I don't look very feminine. I don't have a stereotypically voice but underneath what everyone else sees is another person.
What really upsets me is I get aroused by looking at pictures of women. I know I like men though. I look at them and think about their bodies and their experiences with men. I'm really trying to keep this PG-13 so please forgive me if I cross some border.
I may look at a picture and think about her on top of a man. The whole problem for me is that I am aroused while looking at the woman, still realize I like men, but am totally confused to death by it.
Obviously this isn't something I have ever told anyone before. It's made me very confused over the years all the way back to when I first had a pubic hair.
Obviously this is unnerving and I haven't gotten to ever express it. I know I love the body of a man and I like men. Why then do I have this experience when looking at women? Is it because I feel inadequate or that I won't be able to please a man? Is it because I am pansexual?
To be completely honest I wish my body were more feminine. I wouldn't say that I am a transsexual, but I do feel a certain way and to cope with my environment I had to do what was expected of me because of my genitalia. I act masculine sometimes but most of the time it is only a front.
It's not something a person can really talk about in mainstream society or with relatives and such...
Well, I think everyone deserves a donut if they made it through this post. :donut:
To look at me in person you wouldn't suspect. I don't look very feminine. I don't have a stereotypically voice but underneath what everyone else sees is another person.
What really upsets me is I get aroused by looking at pictures of women. I know I like men though. I look at them and think about their bodies and their experiences with men. I'm really trying to keep this PG-13 so please forgive me if I cross some border.
I may look at a picture and think about her on top of a man. The whole problem for me is that I am aroused while looking at the woman, still realize I like men, but am totally confused to death by it.
Obviously this isn't something I have ever told anyone before. It's made me very confused over the years all the way back to when I first had a pubic hair.
Obviously this is unnerving and I haven't gotten to ever express it. I know I love the body of a man and I like men. Why then do I have this experience when looking at women? Is it because I feel inadequate or that I won't be able to please a man? Is it because I am pansexual?
To be completely honest I wish my body were more feminine. I wouldn't say that I am a transsexual, but I do feel a certain way and to cope with my environment I had to do what was expected of me because of my genitalia. I act masculine sometimes but most of the time it is only a front.
It's not something a person can really talk about in mainstream society or with relatives and such...
Well, I think everyone deserves a donut if they made it through this post. :donut: