Ideally, yeah, the tools to handle it would be nice. But at the same time, I'm not the only problem. This isn't a normal situation. I have no idea what the fuck is going on, but it keeps striking me as impossible that this sort of thing would keep happening out of the blue every single time as simply a string of bad luck. There has to be something else to all of this that I'm unaware of, but I can't figure out what for the fucking life of me. And I just keep suffering in the meantime because I don't have any alternative options that wouldn't completely break my sanity.
You're talking about what he does, yeah?
Coz' if you are - than that's what I mean the tools, so that you would have the tools to choose where you want to be and go, the choice to choose whether to stay or go. And you wouldn't be dependant on anyone so you wouldn't be stuck between the impossible and the impossible. Which is why I said all I did about getting to a place of handling etc.
If it's you that you're talking about, than it's the same. The way to handle differently so that you aren't causing anything (though I don't think it's what you meant).
At the moment you do keep suffering. I hope that you find a way to get somewhere different. Be it with a therapist or on your own. You're worth it. And I believe in you (maybe coz' you've always believed in me. But I believe in you because there's so much strength, courage, perseverance, joy, light and humour through/in you).