I was first dignosed with SA at the age of 13, but i was showing signs throughout my childhood, ive always been an anxious stressy person, always fuelled in social situations. Its the route cause of ALL my issues. I hate the fact that i cnat work/function in daily life because of it. I have left jobs everytime because of it. I was agoraphobic at 15.. i was put on seroxat which helped for a while. Ive been up n down ever since coming off the seroxat at 16-17. Then i developed an eating disorder..
My OCD tendencies control the anxieties fuelled around SA. It all sounds pretty textbook- wish it was so simple.
I hate the blushing, i avoid so much cos of the fear of blushing. I even fear blushing infront of my friends/family. Something they will never know.
No words can describe the impact this has on my life, i am a hermit again, just eat all day and throw up. I wonder if it will ever go away, if not, i dont think i could live with the stress and anxieties, i cant hide away forever and the thought of facing my fears is all too distressing.