What has triggered you? Are the friends your talking about online or offline?
I, personally, always find it easier to talk and help people online because it gives me time to think and I can word things properly. If I was face to face with you right now I'm pretty sure my advice wouldn't be that great, although maybe my advice isn't all that great online anyway.
Even though I say that, it can be difficult talking online too, especially when your friend is feeling really low and you basically have a brain lapse (It's happened to me on many occasion..) and I fail to find the words to help and I feel totally useless because I DO want to help but don't know HOW to.
You're not a bad person, and if people leave in the past then that's not your problem, they clearly weren't friends but people do care about you and want you to stay safe. We won't leave, and you're welcome to PM me anytime. :hug: