I am sad, depressed, down, discouraged, tired. It never seems to end. I've felt good for one full day in the last nine months. And even if I feel good for a brief time while I'm with someone, it just fades or gets ruined. And the next day I'm back down. How is this fair? I never get to feel good. Do normal people feel happy most of the time? And i never ever get to feel comfortable or content. I have no goals so no steps to take toward anything. If I were taking steps I could cross them off my list, and I think i would like that. i'm a list-maker. I'm better than I was, no doubt, thanks to the meds, but still sad. Unexcited, uninterested, walking around towing a 75-pound block of concrete. This is all so self-pitying, but it's true. Sadness is a low-grade, chronic disease. Another 50 years of this. 15,000 days. omg. too much. too little feeling.
still depressed
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Even though I keep thinking that I will be depressed for the rest of my life, there's still a part of me that says I can stop my depression, it doesn't have to haunt me for the rest of my life. Of course, much easier freaking said than done huh? :sad:
Everyone tells me only I can cure my depression, it sure as hell will not go away by itself. That is true, but they also don't know how hard it is for us to get rid of our depression, its not like curing a cold.
Everyone tells me only I can cure my depression, it sure as hell will not go away by itself. That is true, but they also don't know how hard it is for us to get rid of our depression, its not like curing a cold.
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