Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?
- Thread starter Petal
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@Inastorm I don't want anybody to be in this kind of darkness. You're right, in some ways we have quite similar situations. Your words have significantly helped to bring my view around when it's gotten myopic. I hope you're okay, that we could all feel at least as though there's an okay place within reach.
absolutely today. my pain spike has risen for the last 3 or 4 hours now stuck on 10/10. i took all the meds i can safely take, used mmj salve, mmj edibles, and 4 - 5% lidocaine patches. but don't worry i'm safe. when things get this bad my wife watches me like a hawk. i don't really want to die but i have pain limits
,mike
,mike
Many thanks to your wife for keeping you safe. You will definitely be in my prayers tonight that pain will drop substantially. Take care of yourself Mike! 
besides my wife has one line she can use on me to make sure i listen. she says if i don't stay safe she will call my son, i behave lol
mike....
Too busy to think about whether I am or not. Right now, my main problem is getting enough hydration down my throat to replace what I lose through sweat. I need electrolytes after a while. I know it’s electrolyte imbalance because it’s a certain form of wobbliness that tells me when it’s time to get one of those salt tablets (btw by salt they mean a mixture of electrolytes as opposed to table salt alone). The proof for me is that after 20 min I start feeling like myself again. I think I have already mentioned this, but hyperthermia is dreadful.
Imagine the worst hangover you have ever had, and then add to that a headache that makes a tension headache like a candle compared to a flamethrower. Also the wondering, “is this how it ends for me?” I know that we would probably not be on SF if that prospect was as distressing as it would be for most people, but I mean it with no fear implied. When it happened to me, it felt like “meh, there are worse ways…” But the point is that the body feels that unbalanced.
Imagine the worst hangover you have ever had, and then add to that a headache that makes a tension headache like a candle compared to a flamethrower. Also the wondering, “is this how it ends for me?” I know that we would probably not be on SF if that prospect was as distressing as it would be for most people, but I mean it with no fear implied. When it happened to me, it felt like “meh, there are worse ways…” But the point is that the body feels that unbalanced.
I just remembered that IV saline solution is used to rehydrate people quickly after a significant injury or other medical reason (guess how I know) I could probably find the stuff on Amazon. I am restrained by the logistics of gear disassembly, schlepping, and reassembly while trying to scoot around with the whole IV get up attached!
