-
IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT: Please read THIS THREAD about a rebrand for SF.
Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?
- Thread starter Petal
- Start date
Not today. Is that 2 days in a row?? I have one half of me that wants to live. The other half wants to kill both of us. I doubt that one exists without the other.
This awareness, though, does not seem to keep the desire to live from wishing that the desire for death half would just kill himself so that both would be happy.
PS - I doubt that I have or am on the way to DID (dissociative identity disorder). The thought crosses my mind from time to time. I think that my warring parts inside are pieces of a single whole, as opposed to separate, standalone identities. I have been wrong before, though.
This awareness, though, does not seem to keep the desire to live from wishing that the desire for death half would just kill himself so that both would be happy.
PS - I doubt that I have or am on the way to DID (dissociative identity disorder). The thought crosses my mind from time to time. I think that my warring parts inside are pieces of a single whole, as opposed to separate, standalone identities. I have been wrong before, though.
I'd be a great deal calmer and better off if I could manage that, rather than what my mind is trying to do today. It switched itself to high alert, scanning my surroundings, scanning an imaginary future and comparing all the bits to past events. 🧿
Anyway I'm going to make a note of it. Thanks for for that LumberJack.
Anyway I'm going to make a note of it. Thanks for for that LumberJack.
To be honest, I’m not sure if I am managing this right now. I’m trying and had success earlier. It seems to have snapped back since. I’m having what feels very similar to the PTSD flashbacks I had after moving out on my own. Except, it’s about the more recent injuries.
I’m going to try some breathing exercises, mainly the one where you try to breathe out slowly, such that the out-breath is about 50% longer than the in-breath ex: 4 beats in & 6 beats out. It might work. If not, I will handle that bridge when I reach it.
I’m going to try some breathing exercises, mainly the one where you try to breathe out slowly, such that the out-breath is about 50% longer than the in-breath ex: 4 beats in & 6 beats out. It might work. If not, I will handle that bridge when I reach it.
