Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

[1964dodge]

thought about it while i was sick but no way will i let the reaper win without a fight lol

mike

 

[1964dodge]

thank you @AmberMarie

mike....

 

[SillyOldBear]

thought about it while i was sick but no way will i let the reaper win without a fight lol

mike

You are a lot stronger than I am. An inspiration.

 

[1964dodge]

You are a lot stronger than I am. An inspiration.

thank you barb

mike....

 

[may71]

Welcome back Mike

 

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[JanisSPK]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

I'll take one, no I"ll take two. Thank you!

 

[JanisSPK]

I could say yes because of what's happening and the changes that have occurred but I know better. I am fearful that it is possibly coming and not too far off. I'm going to do my best to try and keep it as down as I can.

 

[I_waste_everything]

Yes. I pushing into my memories I have uncovered memory of when I played nice with my abuser, years after he'd abused me.

And the abuse wasn't even acutely in my mind. SLAUGHTER ME!!! SLAUGHTERME!! SLAUGHTERME!!

Compartmentalization. That's the word. All my life I've compartmentalized and I've empowered evil and tried to be freinds with the disgusting after they defiled me for it. So fucking stupid. The mods would edit htis comment if I would get more specific, but for fuck's sake, I'm idiot. I'm tbhe reason evil thrives. JUST KILL ME!!!

This sigust-disgustingness I feel, it's overwelming me. I can't think, or type. I am lonely. I bear this alone. Maybe that's justice.

 

[I_waste_everything]

How many other victims has he taken, because I pushed what he did, what I let him do, into a file cabinet deep in my brain and threw away the key?! How much possible healing did I throw away because I never spoke up, originally because I kept it a secret, but then because I made myself literally never remember (until years after?)

MOM! DAD! SISTER! STOP LOVING ME! I WANT TO GO! I WANT TO END THIS! STOP! STOP! STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[seabird]

@I_waste_everything Evil isn't your doing, I hope it's okay to say that.

 

[Road to Nowhere]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

Thanks, I will take a hug @may71 and give one to anyone who would like one in return.