Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

[1964dodge]

Very much so.

please hang on barb, we should be going home soon enough

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

no - but mainly because I don't have the energy. The intrusive thoughts are there, and worse than usual. I'd rather just sleep, though.

 

[1964dodge]

I try to find my way out of my head by reading and writing sometimes, but it doesn't always work. I read a story recently that got me so depressed I felt even worse than I already did-not easy. Still want out.

i hope things get better for you soon

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

Feeling bad yeah.

it’s realizing how I just know it’s better not be here anymore

 

[1964dodge]

i have been having those thoughts more often the last 2 or 3 weeks. some are a bit more serious but i have won over those thoughts every times at least so far lol. i'm ready to go home but not by my hand, it must be gods invitation

mike

 

[Rhidia]

Head keeps shaking on the inside. Just want it to stop.

 

[1964dodge]

Head keeps shaking on the inside. Just want it to stop.

 

[Rhidia]

I think my anti-anxiety medication is causing my head to feel weird due to it stopping me from natural and unnatural anxiety responses. Not good. Also, still not sleeping right.

 

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[Rhidia]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

Thank you, always need hugs. Feeling so done with life now...

 

[I_waste_everything]

Uncovered a piece of memory þæt reveals þæt, even more þan I have consciously þoht, I should kill myself, on principle.

However, I have been facing ugly of myself þru þe "20'20's", and built a capacity to bear learning I'm worse and worse. I'll not do it yet.

Besides, I've said I need to know everyþing, even if þe truþ cripples me. I deserve þis anguish and self-disgust. To kill myself would be to (atleast secularly) take þe easy way out of þe appall þæt I must face and feel, and which I frankly deserve.

 

[1964dodge]

yes but safe

mike

 

[SillyOldBear]

only every day

 

[1964dodge]

only every day

if you are like me, you trust in god, actually you're probably closer than i am , so put your trust that he knows what he's doing. he has a plan, it baffles me but there is a plan. in that plan you will go home. i will miss you when you go home but i will not be sad, i will gain great joy knowing you went home and there will be no suffering only love and peace

your friend

mike.....

 

[alexundead6]

Hopefully I will ctb by early/mid-November

 

[Windhover]

no

 

[Rhidia]

Yes. Life bites down hard when you feel hopeful.

 

[Rhidia]

Just feel sad all the time.

 

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[LumberJack]

Not really. I am looking forward to death. My intrusive thoughts are screaming at me that the only reason I have not to kms is that I would fail at that, too. So the inside of my mind is in a really bad state. I’m trying to let it be, in the sense that this is depression. I have depression, so it’s not a surprise to feel existential fear and despair. Maybe I can get used to it so that it is less disturbing.