Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

[LumberJack]

I didn’t contact 988. Instead I called my Aunt with whom I am very close. I really needed to hear a friendly voice, and she has known me since I was born. She knows how I tick, and we are related, meaning we have a very similar way of thinking about and processing information.

So I feel better and my tears are taking a break. However, I’m exhausted from all the crying. At least I did release some emotional tension. It comes at the cost of physical energy though.

 

[1964dodge]

Thank you for such a quick reply

Is it really OK to ... express stuff about... <that>?

It would be really nice to ... ok?

I can't really say!!!

you can talk about most things including suicide, as long as you don't mention method or timeline, sorry for the late reply

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

I keep waking up while it's still dark and being unable to get back to sleep. Add in depression that pushes me down every chance it gets, anxiety about everything in life, so little happiness...

I just want to get off.

 

[1964dodge]

not suicidal. it is still in the back of my mind especially on bad pain days. in a way i want to go home but i think i can wait until god calls me home. i am ok

mike

 

[Rek_ki]

[TW: SI]

Nobody can or will ever, ever know

tonight, I've had a proper SI session

while I watched Snowpiercer, one of my top 4 movies

It was a really, really satisfying SI session... nobody will ever know

I've SI'ed until ... I was content

Snowpiercer is the embodiment of my life, it is all that is me, entirely

I'm content

 

[Rek_ki]

[TW: SI and ... the final mode]

I just watched my favourite movie of all time:

THE SNOWPIERCER

I want to write a very long story under "My story', something which nobody will ever know, of course, but ....

THE SNOWPIERCER

I just finished watching it, and ... I completely broke down and sobbed uncontrollably, the tears flowing down... I just completely broke down and sobbed uncontrollably...

I never cry, I SI instead

And I did SI

I had a proper SI session just earlier

My leg hurts

I made (tiny) red puddle

I LOVED IT

I REALLY, REALLY LOVED IT

I absolutely, undeniably, completely and fully: LOVED IT

Nobody can ever deny or dispute it in any way:

I LOVE CUTTING MYSELF

I LOVE CUTTING MYSELF

I love feeling the blood accumulate and drip down my thigh, onto the floor, forming a pool

The pool was too small, way too small ...I didn't like that, at all ... and so ... I made it bigger

The lovely feeling of blood flowing down my leg... AAAHHH!!... I LOVED IT, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE IT

I belong to the tail section

and I want the train to crush

 

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[may71]

I can’t use the phone because I am crying too much to get a complete thought verbalized.

Sending special hugs just for you

 

[Greberc83]

no but my life is worthless I have no reason to be here