the end

[tappa]

i know suicide is wrong, by doing it im letting people down.
but by living im letting myself down.
And i will die tonight (sorry) but i cannot face feeling this bad and wimping out or being talked around and such and waking up tomorrow feeling like this!
I feel so sick right now just thinking about it but theres no other way.
If the choice is to try and carry on and feel this shit, or to jump..
then im guna leave.
I cant handle going through this day in day out.
I want someone to kill me so bad but its not going to happen so im going to have to do it myself.
I cant bare living anymore. and its not life its me. i hate me. Completely.
But i have to wake up as this person everyday, no more!

 

[itmahanh]

Dont do it. Go to the nearest emergency at the hospital and tell them what you are feeling and planning to do. They will keep you safe from yourself and help you find help.