Hello. I have bipolar disorder and IBS-Irritable Bowel Syndrome. My depression and mania are under control as I am taking meds. But my IBS is troubling me. I have booked appointment with GI doc on Wed. I am hopeful the meds he prescribes will work. I am feeling lonely as my wife and kids do not live with me although I am in touch with them. I have taken up a new business but the tenant in the shop is not vacating. I have also met another doc. As per his advice I have given blood for hormone test to chk my stress level. This is also for my bowels prob. I was in America for 7 years but because of depression I could not be successful. Because of my current circumstances, suicide looks like a good option. I don't want to die but I have been left with no choice. My death will affect my children but time will heal the wounds.
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You might want to read this thread (link below)
Your Kids Will Not Be OK When You Are Gone (blog post from the daughter of a man who killed himself).
Your Kids Will Not Be OK When You Are Gone (blog post from the daughter of a man who killed himself).
Hi May read the blog. Yes. Suicide of a parent does have devastating effect on children. They undergo a rush of emotions from grief to anger to frustration. If I do commit suicide I know I will be selfish only thinking of myself. I have had a very rough life. I must admit I have mild suicidal thoughts. Another point is if I survive I will be surely admitted to rehab. I have been to rehab in 2016, it's like a prison. Suicide method I have chosen has 99% success rate, but not 100%.
I’m not Petal but I’d like to reply anyway. Somehow right now you need to find a way past thinking that suicide is your only solution. You’re family, especially your kids would be devastated. You said in your original post that your depression and mania were under control. I am so happy for you about this but also very jealous because I’ve been trying for decades to get mine under control. I’ve been on so many meds and been to so many therapists yet I’m no better off then when I first was diagnosed in 1999. Many times I’ve wanted to give up and I’ve come close to doing it, but I never could go through with it. What I’m getting at is it’s frustrating and so tiring but you gotta find something that will help you to keep going and keep trying to get better.
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