I'm absolutely FREAKING OUT I don't like it here in college. I don't like my room mates I'm so scared if I leave California and go back home to Chicago I will kill myself I will be a failure I should do it now.
I had the mother of all panic attacks about an hour ago. I vomited and hyperventilated and sobbed for over an hour. My Dad is still here what am I going to do when he is not here I can't do it I should just give up I"m a failure
I miss James and Kathy and all my friends and Jana and Kirby and Oreo and Ava and my bed and my room and my backyard and everything. I take back about hating Illinois.
I can't do it I can't I can't I CAN'T
I had the mother of all panic attacks about an hour ago. I vomited and hyperventilated and sobbed for over an hour. My Dad is still here what am I going to do when he is not here I can't do it I should just give up I"m a failure
I miss James and Kathy and all my friends and Jana and Kirby and Oreo and Ava and my bed and my room and my backyard and everything. I take back about hating Illinois.
I can't do it I can't I can't I CAN'T