why does this always happen to me?
JUST wen i thought my life was getting back on track. I got a job , i dont self harm as often, ive partly patched up things with ppl i had arguements with. for the 1st time in ages i was happy with the way things was going!
BUT my sister has just told me that her and my dad had an arguement. what about? did i steal money from them? NOPE! did i threaten to hit them or have hit them? NOPE! have i abused them in anyway? NOPE! have i taken drugs? NOPE! its because I WAS SMOKING A CIG IN MY ROOM. my mum has given me idle threats in the past about throwing me out but this was my dad! he said to my sister ''this isnt 1 of ur mums idle threats i fucking mean it! i cant take living with nigel (me) and any of u lot anymore'' what parent throws out there only son, espcially 1 thats suffering with mental health problems?
the only thing thats stopped me in the past from killing myself is becuz i thought i didnt have it that bad, but now i wont have a home to live in (2 weeks to be exact) i wont have my job becuz im homeless. so you know what? i actually stopped caring now, i WILL 100% PROMISE u i WILL kill myself tonite, by any means possible!
no1 or nothing at all will change my fuckin mind, couldnt care if it upsets any of my ex g/f's , sister , friends, and no offence but any of u. why the fuck shud i stay around to suffer just becuz ppl want me alive?? ive never been a selfish person but fuck it, this'll be the 1st selfish act im gonna do
JUST wen i thought my life was getting back on track. I got a job , i dont self harm as often, ive partly patched up things with ppl i had arguements with. for the 1st time in ages i was happy with the way things was going!
BUT my sister has just told me that her and my dad had an arguement. what about? did i steal money from them? NOPE! did i threaten to hit them or have hit them? NOPE! have i abused them in anyway? NOPE! have i taken drugs? NOPE! its because I WAS SMOKING A CIG IN MY ROOM. my mum has given me idle threats in the past about throwing me out but this was my dad! he said to my sister ''this isnt 1 of ur mums idle threats i fucking mean it! i cant take living with nigel (me) and any of u lot anymore'' what parent throws out there only son, espcially 1 thats suffering with mental health problems?
the only thing thats stopped me in the past from killing myself is becuz i thought i didnt have it that bad, but now i wont have a home to live in (2 weeks to be exact) i wont have my job becuz im homeless. so you know what? i actually stopped caring now, i WILL 100% PROMISE u i WILL kill myself tonite, by any means possible!
no1 or nothing at all will change my fuckin mind, couldnt care if it upsets any of my ex g/f's , sister , friends, and no offence but any of u. why the fuck shud i stay around to suffer just becuz ppl want me alive?? ive never been a selfish person but fuck it, this'll be the 1st selfish act im gonna do