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Ash600

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Doctor finally agreed to put me on therapeutic dose of pain killer but starting with next prescription which is in about three and a half weeks. In the meantime I was advised to augment it with paracetamol to try prolonging duration of action. Self-tested at home positive for Covid. Had it last year around same time as well. We'll see how it goes this time around.
Oh man, I heard that Covid had picked up over there. Hoping that it'll be mild in it's severity this time round.
 

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Thank you! So far its milder, hope it stays that way until its gone, hopefully soon.
Hoping the same for you as well. I remember when I went down with it during that first wave. Felt rough as hell so not looking for any repeat performances...

....But anywys, with any luck your immune system will kick in and will be able to hold it back and just maintain it with at worst a relatively mild manifestation of symptoms.
 

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It's been day 4 of Covid. Last two days am not taking anything for low fever; anyhow I am popping a few paracetamols along pain killer. This morning I realized my sense of smell and taste are diminishing. Bit uneasy. Went to my friend Google (this not an ad for Ad King) and it tells me mint might work. What a relief. Never been happier to have mints in my mouth. Minty minty mint.
 

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Hoping the same for you as well. I remember when I went down with it during that first wave. Felt rough as hell so not looking for any repeat performances...

....But anywys, with any luck your immune system will kick in and will be able to hold it back and just maintain it with at worst a relatively mild manifestation of symptoms.
Thank you. Yeah the first time it hit me was hard for days and lingered on for a good month with nausea and weakness. This time around I hope to survive and have it easier.
 

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Starting to WD in-between the doses of a painkiller plus th Covid crap might be lingering on confusing me totally about thrle state of my body. On top of it, I have fallen in love again with my first love. We spoke for hours last night but I am noy ready to dump this on her as she is still grieving over her last relationship. Falling in love brings butterflies in a stomach. Is there a place which accepts people with triple diagnosis :) This I take as blessings actually. As much as things hurt, rekindling relationship with someone I've loved since I was sweet 16 is adding spice to my shell life I've been having for months. Since cardiac arrest,NDE and OBE, it was hard for me to dream again, especially on top of depression which was not treated properly for years. At last, imagination is here, back to the human realms. Right now I say Fuck Yeah, I'll take it. Better to romaticize than live in fear and frustration. Look at that feather, hahaha, wings grow...ready to fly- hi....
 

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Something is seriously fucked again. Famotodine I can tolerate. Carafaye is giving me nausea and I am having same pains I endured for 2 yrs with no meds b4 I bled to death. Now am giving myself liberty of shuffling pain killer amd sedative in intervals of 2 hours. Have some extra sedative. Not sure, might have to make a run to a diff city for some fent, I wish heroin was still an option on the streets. Am not even sure if my conexion will work as they stafted methadone protocol today. I can always be a lousy motherfucker and reitirate his words how methadone is not doing much for them after years of using fent so that way I can get them to get some for them and me until I get next prescription. There are moments where I feel like taking that part of my body physically out but then I would prolly vreaye even more pain, prolly bleeding and shock. I was in ER aboit a week ago and CT scan came unremarkable, but CT scand cant detect everything.
 

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Something is seriously fucked again. Famotodine I can tolerate. Carafaye is giving me nausea and I am having same pains I endured for 2 yrs with no meds b4 I bled to death. Now am giving myself liberty of shuffling pain killer amd sedative in intervals of 2 hours. Have some extra sedative. Not sure, might have to make a run to a diff city for some fent, I wish heroin was still an option on the streets. Am not even sure if my conexion will work as they stafted methadone protocol today. I can always be a lousy motherfucker and reitirate his words how methadone is not doing much for them after years of using fent so that way I can get them to get some for them and me until I get next prescription. There are moments where I feel like taking that part of my body physically out but then I would prolly vreaye even more pain, prolly bleeding and shock. I was in ER aboit a week ago and CT scan came unremarkable, but CT scand cant detect everything.
I am sorry can you tell what's going on with you?
 

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Nope. But I weote a few things.
I see.. take care, you matter. It's painful but you matter. You matter a lot, hold on there. It's gonna be just fine, you will be fine. Your existence matters, matters a lot even if you feel like it doesn't. It matters, you matter. Thankyou for existing. And I am so sorry you have to go through so much, you truly don't deserve this. Must be so hurtful.. I am sorry, you matter hold on, this will pass I promise
 

Ash600

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I can understand how you feel when you talked about just wanting to rip out that part oi your body that is causing so much havoc. It's like that saying, if it's not working then get rid of the fucker... Of course it's not really an option....

You mentioned Carafaye - Carafate? Nausea is one of the side effects with that. How long has it been going on for? A few days? Also, any constipation being experienced? Though that particular side effect is more commonly associated with opiods, Carafate can also cause that. In rare cases, it could be bezoar formation which is basically a GI blockage. You probably don't want to hear me say this, but a chat with your docs about this would be strongly recommneded.

Actually, I just clocked on, you recently had a CT scan, so I assume they would've picked that up at the time. Sorry, should've been paying more attention.
 

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I can understand how you feel when you talked about just wanting to rip out that part oi your body that is causing so much havoc. It's like that saying, if it's not working then get rid of the fucker... Of course it's not really an option....

You mentioned Carafaye - Carafate? Nausea is one of the side effects with that. How long has it been going on for? A few days? Also, any constipation being experienced? Though that particular side effect is more commonly associated with opiods, Carafate can also cause that. In rare cases, it could be bezoar formation which is basically a GI blockage. You probably don't want to hear me say this, but a chat with your docs about this would be strongly recommneded.

Actually, I just clocked on, you recently had a CT scan, so I assume they would've picked that up at the time. Sorry, should've been paying more attention.
My PCP is clueless. He just throws shit at me amd refers me to specialists, did not even wanna change my IBS med which aggrivates GERD but said to go to GI, but then GI said that medicine is alright. Wtf. Whateves, i pop famotidine and and say hi to pharma over the counter. If he was allowed by feds he'd prolly give me anything he wants and anything I'd ask for for example some hydromorphone so I can use O from time to time. Yeah, it was carafate giant tablets that give me nausea, figired that so I paid couple of hundreds out of ppcket to get liquid solution which does not give me nausea. For sure it adds to opoid constipation. I dont think now that I have blockage after CT scan recently. It might be that lining is damaged by some imfection or bacteria bit I am unable to schedule and keep my med appnnts unless I can zoom them. Lickily my psych therapy can do so. Others not so much. I am at the point where I am turning into statistic moving towards street drugs which is okay. As long as ot is painless I dont care of the outcome anymore, jist popping pills as pains come. Thank you for reading and giving professional advice, it means alot! Its comforting.
 

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It appears that few days of carafate solution, some famotidine and reduction in tobacco did a trick in healing the lining. Ibuprofen and any other NSAID (except low dose aspirin) have been tossed to trash. I dont want to get tempted again, seems only couple of days of taking a few doses total messes up my stomach. Pain killer for sure helpped to go through few miserable painful days. Todays more like jitters, so am loading meself on sedative since there is now reduction in painkiller. This has become like a game in a way. Couple of days I had to pop pain killer very often, now will try to have a good meal and sufficient sedative for GABA and keep on going. Soon I am coming onto legit therapeutic dose for pain so hopefully there will be improvement in overall quality of life.
 

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Feeling like end is coming soon. Each day more functions are disrupted. I am thankfull and hope it will be peacful during deep sleep. Body cannot store anymore of this life.
 

Ash600

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Feeling like end is coming soon. Each day more functions are disrupted. I am thankfull and hope it will be peacful during deep sleep. Body cannot store anymore of this life.
Sorry for how you've been feeling and how the body seems way off course. Hope you'll find your peace both during sleep and through those waking hours.
 

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Still alive, have no clue how. Got my pain killer prescription on therapeautic schedule but lo n behold it appears I've developed tolerance to that as well so am starting to feel WD (nausea, cold hot feelings, dhiarea) in between the doses. Am starting to up it and then whatever happens after I run out of it. Got couple of diff muscle relaxers so they might be able to do the trick when time comes to wait for next prescription. Seems USA will go under sooner than later. This nation is fucked on so many levels.
 

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That I can relate to. To tell the truth, I've lost count of how many nations are currently up the shitter

How did those muscle relaxers work for you by the way or are you still holding them back in reserve?
I hold them back in reserve because I am on cloni and oxy, and if I add any muscle relaxer to the mix I am total zombie since all of them are CNS downers. As far as pain goes, it is hit and miss, same as oxy, its just that if I take them into the mix they knock me out so nobody cares about pain while they're out. I am back to my schedule now, enduring the pain in btwn the doses. My mental hypervigilance from most recent PTSD has to do something with the pain being felt more than it should have if my CNS motherboardad wasn't short circuted.
 

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