What happened today. More than an hour ago. Today is eid. My so called family does a thing where they try to get loud to get attention from other people so the person listening can potentially abuse when someone isn't listening to the person getting loud.
I wasn't planning to celebrate but I had to wear new clothes of not my real choice and my mom did a hairstyle on me that I undid after a while.
My mom was making attempts to make my hair but somehow I got myself free and told her I just wanted to keep it open.
As we were about to go to one of the relatives , again I didn't really wanna go. She is not a nice person according to me. my uncle said " do not go like this ( opened hair ) outside. Do not go like this at all. "
He said that in a threatening tone. I think it was because I was avoiding him for a while , he has been giving me extra attention lately. I also didn't wish him salam when he gave me money today for Eid.
So , I went inside and said I am not going. My uncle said " make her understand that in opened hair you shouldn't go outside "
My mom tried , I refused. They were going without me when my uncle barged into the room , grabbed my arm , said something " just get up "
I didn't. I was studying. He closed the book. He said " I will tear it " he was yelling now. I looked at him , I think it was a mixture of breakdown , hope and me trying to manipulate him. I was crying and said " why are you being disrespectful , leave it "
He yelled again. I can't recall the exact words but he was keep trying to convince me by being abusive. He gave physical threats. My family members were trying to keep him away from me by verbal persuasion. He said " stay away " to them. He also , said to me , " get up or I will tear everything , I will tear the book. I will tear you. "
In the next try to convince him , he said to the family members. " You all stay away too or I will tear you as well. " ( Weird words maybe but that's how he threaten that he will tear the person in pieces )
I was trembling , crying ( I shouldn't have , I think it gave him power and I lost this there )
Anyways , I braided my hair and had to go. Didn't eat anything there though and gave his money to my brother. I was tearing it when my mom and aunt stopped me.
My mom thinks it's my fault. No one will say or do anything , just the power dynamic.
My father called my brother while we were leaving. He didn't go , because he was sick. He called my brother and said " tell him ( the uncle ) that we will live as a separate family without him. He is a psychopath. My daughter could have gotten a heart attack. "
Lol , yeah and he kissed my hands when I came back. He is no better though. A little maybe yes but yeah.
They are all manipulative , whatever.
Anyways new trauma added. I hope I can get a chance to spit on his face when he would be sick or something and I would be financially and in all other sorts independant then. Sounds like a really good dream to me.
I would appreciate the support. Thankyou for reading.
I wasn't planning to celebrate but I had to wear new clothes of not my real choice and my mom did a hairstyle on me that I undid after a while.
My mom was making attempts to make my hair but somehow I got myself free and told her I just wanted to keep it open.
As we were about to go to one of the relatives , again I didn't really wanna go. She is not a nice person according to me. my uncle said " do not go like this ( opened hair ) outside. Do not go like this at all. "
He said that in a threatening tone. I think it was because I was avoiding him for a while , he has been giving me extra attention lately. I also didn't wish him salam when he gave me money today for Eid.
So , I went inside and said I am not going. My uncle said " make her understand that in opened hair you shouldn't go outside "
My mom tried , I refused. They were going without me when my uncle barged into the room , grabbed my arm , said something " just get up "
I didn't. I was studying. He closed the book. He said " I will tear it " he was yelling now. I looked at him , I think it was a mixture of breakdown , hope and me trying to manipulate him. I was crying and said " why are you being disrespectful , leave it "
He yelled again. I can't recall the exact words but he was keep trying to convince me by being abusive. He gave physical threats. My family members were trying to keep him away from me by verbal persuasion. He said " stay away " to them. He also , said to me , " get up or I will tear everything , I will tear the book. I will tear you. "
In the next try to convince him , he said to the family members. " You all stay away too or I will tear you as well. " ( Weird words maybe but that's how he threaten that he will tear the person in pieces )
I was trembling , crying ( I shouldn't have , I think it gave him power and I lost this there )
Anyways , I braided my hair and had to go. Didn't eat anything there though and gave his money to my brother. I was tearing it when my mom and aunt stopped me.
My mom thinks it's my fault. No one will say or do anything , just the power dynamic.
My father called my brother while we were leaving. He didn't go , because he was sick. He called my brother and said " tell him ( the uncle ) that we will live as a separate family without him. He is a psychopath. My daughter could have gotten a heart attack. "
Lol , yeah and he kissed my hands when I came back. He is no better though. A little maybe yes but yeah.
They are all manipulative , whatever.
Anyways new trauma added. I hope I can get a chance to spit on his face when he would be sick or something and I would be financially and in all other sorts independant then. Sounds like a really good dream to me.
I would appreciate the support. Thankyou for reading.
