Hi
I recently attempted ... but couldn't go through with it due to fear. I haven't done anything since then, but I'm feeling terrible again and the thoughts of suicide are back. I'm a victim of domestic violence, and it's unbearable here.
That is terrible!
I am sorry you're going through so much pain and abuse..
Do you think reaching out to helpline numbers will help? Especially if you're constantly unsafe.
I know breaking cycles of abuse isn't easy but to think about your safety , it should be the priority. Do you have any set of emergency contact numbers that you can reach out to if things go out of hand?
Any relatives , friends , acquaintance who may allow you to stay at their place if needed , temporarily?
I just saw , you tagged " empathy only ". On my behalf , I said those things because I believe it was my moral duty. Your safety is important.
As for empathy , I will try.
I believe abuse really does great damage to you. It affects your self esteem , your anxiety levels , your whole life. You do not deserve it at all. No. Your abuser , they might say things like you do. They might make you believe that you do , but you do not deserve it! They are abusive period.
Their flares up is completely their own choices. CHOICES , they might be going through some mental or emotional things of their own but that doesn't justify their abuse at all. No.
I am sorry , I truly am that you found yourself stuck in such situation. It sucks. I wish you lots of strength , hope , luck and I just wish that you free from this , one day and heal and get to see good days in your life because you deserve it 100%.
Also , fuck your abuser 🖕
