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Empathy Only (TW: domestic violence). Need some moral support. I'm having suicidal thoughts. I feel awful
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That is terrible!
I am sorry you're going through so much pain and abuse..
Do you think reaching out to helpline numbers will help? Especially if you're constantly unsafe.
I know breaking cycles of abuse isn't easy but to think about your safety , it should be the priority. Do you have any set of emergency contact numbers that you can reach out to if things go out of hand?
Any relatives , friends , acquaintance who may allow you to stay at their place if needed , temporarily?
I just saw , you tagged " empathy only ". On my behalf , I said those things because I believe it was my moral duty. Your safety is important.
As for empathy , I will try.
I believe abuse really does great damage to you. It affects your self esteem , your anxiety levels , your whole life. You do not deserve it at all. No. Your abuser , they might say things like you do. They might make you believe that you do , but you do not deserve it! They are abusive period.
Their flares up is completely their own choices. CHOICES , they might be going through some mental or emotional things of their own but that doesn't justify their abuse at all. No.
I am sorry , I truly am that you found yourself stuck in such situation. It sucks. I wish you lots of strength , hope , luck and I just wish that you free from this , one day and heal and get to see good days in your life because you deserve it 100%.
Also , fuck your abuser đź–•
I am sorry you're going through so much pain and abuse..
Do you think reaching out to helpline numbers will help? Especially if you're constantly unsafe.
I know breaking cycles of abuse isn't easy but to think about your safety , it should be the priority. Do you have any set of emergency contact numbers that you can reach out to if things go out of hand?
Any relatives , friends , acquaintance who may allow you to stay at their place if needed , temporarily?
I just saw , you tagged " empathy only ". On my behalf , I said those things because I believe it was my moral duty. Your safety is important.
As for empathy , I will try.
I believe abuse really does great damage to you. It affects your self esteem , your anxiety levels , your whole life. You do not deserve it at all. No. Your abuser , they might say things like you do. They might make you believe that you do , but you do not deserve it! They are abusive period.
Their flares up is completely their own choices. CHOICES , they might be going through some mental or emotional things of their own but that doesn't justify their abuse at all. No.
I am sorry , I truly am that you found yourself stuck in such situation. It sucks. I wish you lots of strength , hope , luck and I just wish that you free from this , one day and heal and get to see good days in your life because you deserve it 100%.
Also , fuck your abuser đź–•
Hi @Congratsbaby
Thank you so much for your support. It really helped me. I also really love the last part: “fuck your abuser”))
After reading your message, I actually felt some hope for the first time in more than half a year - hope that I might get out of this and that everything could eventually be okay.
Right now I’m being pressured from all sides by the people around me. And at the same time, I have absolutely no support and I don’t know what to do. As for domestic violence support services, unfortunately I can’t really use them in my situation. I’m financially dependent on this fucking piece of shit who abuses me. And because of the physical injuries/trauma I have, I can’t get a job and move out. The rest of the people around me are just making everything even worse.
I know everyone here is having a hard time, and I really hope my messages aren’t making you feel worse. I’d feel awful if they were.
I decided to write this and just vent to someone who actually listens, because you’ve already helped and supported me so much. I’m writing because I have no strength left and I’m right on the edge.
Before my previous attempt, I thought about signing up on this site, talking to someone and asking for help. I didn’t do it, and eventually I ended up making an attempt that failed.
Right now I’m trying to hold myself together, more or less, but I just can’t anymore.
Sometimes I might not reply to a message at all, or I might reply really late. It’s because I have very little energy right now. I really appreciate the attention and support people give me, both now and in the future. I just wanted to say that if I don’t respond, it’s not because I’m being rude or ignoring anyone on purpose. Just wanted to clarify, just in case.
Thank you so much for your support. It really helped me. I also really love the last part: “fuck your abuser”))
After reading your message, I actually felt some hope for the first time in more than half a year - hope that I might get out of this and that everything could eventually be okay.
Right now I’m being pressured from all sides by the people around me. And at the same time, I have absolutely no support and I don’t know what to do. As for domestic violence support services, unfortunately I can’t really use them in my situation. I’m financially dependent on this fucking piece of shit who abuses me. And because of the physical injuries/trauma I have, I can’t get a job and move out. The rest of the people around me are just making everything even worse.
I know everyone here is having a hard time, and I really hope my messages aren’t making you feel worse. I’d feel awful if they were.
I decided to write this and just vent to someone who actually listens, because you’ve already helped and supported me so much. I’m writing because I have no strength left and I’m right on the edge.
Before my previous attempt, I thought about signing up on this site, talking to someone and asking for help. I didn’t do it, and eventually I ended up making an attempt that failed.
Right now I’m trying to hold myself together, more or less, but I just can’t anymore.
Sometimes I might not reply to a message at all, or I might reply really late. It’s because I have very little energy right now. I really appreciate the attention and support people give me, both now and in the future. I just wanted to say that if I don’t respond, it’s not because I’m being rude or ignoring anyone on purpose. Just wanted to clarify, just in case.
