Hello, SF. I want to talk so badly, but almost everything I can think of to say is "not OK" in some form or another. But then, that's the problem. I feel like I am constantly being boxed in, restricted, corralled, or herded in a direction that someone else feels is most appropriate. I just want to get away from it all. It's not that I expect life to be perfect, but it just seems like there should be some sort of haven (however small or temporary) at some point. I want to scream, but I don't want to disturb anyone. And even if I disregarded everyone the way I feel they disregard me to let it out, I don't know what good it would really do. Afterwards, I'd just feel silly and nothing will have changed. If anything, such behavior would only make people feel justified in treating me the way they do. I know what it feels like to be desperately unhappy. So, I try not to let my actions disrupt the happiness of others (I am not always successful in those attempts). I try to contribute to the happiness of others around me, as much as I can. But it seems to go unappreciated (or flat out unnoticed, entirely) and I have started to resent what feels like constantly living for others.