I don't understand why it is so hard for me to walk away from you. Logically, I know that our relationship isn't healthy. Everytime I see you I feel like I am walking on egg shells b.c I don't know when you are going to snap. I am tired of having to try and explain away the bruises. People are starting to wonder. I just wish you would tell me what I do that makes you so mad, so you can give me the chance to try and change. I know you get frustrated that I am not a trusting and affectionate person, but I wish you were able to understand why. But mainly thats my fault because I won't tell you what made me that way. I just can't...not yet. I may never be able to and I am sorry for that. You want stuff from me that I just can't give you right now. I just wish that you wouldn't hit me and instead we could just talk it out. But then again, I know its all my fault. Its my fault you get so angry. I make you get to the point where you get violent. I know you love me, but shouldn't love make me feel good? Your love hurts, physically and emotionally. I am really at my breaking point. I don't know what to do. I feel that if I wasn't around anymore then you would be happy and you could find somebody that wouldn't get you to the point that you need to hit them. I wish I could give you what you want, but I just can't. I know that deep down you are an amazing person and that you would never want to hurt me, but you do. I know that we shouldn't be together... you deserve better than me. I am so sorry I am not good enough for you not to hit. :sad:
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I know you might not want replies...but I promise if you're willing, I'll talk and help you. It might be the only decent thing I'll do when I live...but it upsets me to see someone who tries get hurt. I hope you'll smile and remember that life is worth living. I'm sorry with how things are...and I'll pray for you.
Love and peace,
~Prince of Hosts
Love and peace,
~Prince of Hosts
Ok this is going to be straight to the point. Get away from this arsehole and NOW!!!!
There is no excuse for hitting, and no fucking way is this your fault !!!!
This person obviously thinks they can do what they want, when they want and has no control of their anger. This will not get better, infact it will escalate.
Don't leave it till they seriously injure you GET OUT NOW!!!
There is no excuse for hitting, and no fucking way is this your fault !!!!
This person obviously thinks they can do what they want, when they want and has no control of their anger. This will not get better, infact it will escalate.
Don't leave it till they seriously injure you GET OUT NOW!!!
Thats just it.... I am so confused. On some level I love him and need him. He is a great guy but he has a violent side that I always seem to be on the recieving end of. Part of me feels like I could change him...make him realize that what he is doing is not right. And then there is the fact that I am scared. What if he totally flips out and takes it out on me. I now that I will not be able to defend myself. I don't know... sorry I am wasting your time Princeofhope. :sad:
Wasting my time? Hahaha, no way...it's my job to talk to people and help them. You aren't wasting my time, you're wasting my time by not smiling. ^_^
You really love him? Are you sure it isn't just a drive to be with someone so you don't feel alone?
I'm not the type of guy to go slap a girl, unless it's video games and I lose and it's with a girl who I know...but most of the time she punches me first.
Back to topic, you're not your man's punching bag. You don't deserve this and no woman does.
What's going on today? When does he normally do it? Does he drink?
Just tell me more of what's going on so I can help out or something...if worse comes to worse I could help with legal actions.
You really love him? Are you sure it isn't just a drive to be with someone so you don't feel alone?
I'm not the type of guy to go slap a girl, unless it's video games and I lose and it's with a girl who I know...but most of the time she punches me first.
Back to topic, you're not your man's punching bag. You don't deserve this and no woman does.
What's going on today? When does he normally do it? Does he drink?
Just tell me more of what's going on so I can help out or something...if worse comes to worse I could help with legal actions.
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Well... the thing is that I never had a guy in my life that ever treated me the way that a I guess I should be I. I was abused (thats a whole other issue) when I was younger so I guess you could say that I don't know how I should be treated. If that even makes any sense. He wants things from me that currently, in my state of mind, I can't give him. I never got help from the whole abuse thing so getting close to someone in a physical way just freaks me out right now and brings back memories that I don't/can't deal with right now. He gets angry that I don't want to take things to the next level and that I push him away. But for some reason I understand why he gets so mad. He doesn't know the reasons why I don't want to go further with him and I guess thats my fault. I can't bring myself to tell him and I don't think I ever will. Because I push him away he gets mad and then one thing leads to another and then...well you can figure out the rest.
Well... the thing is that I never had a guy in my life that ever treated me the way that a I guess I should be I. I was abused (thats a whole other issue) when I was younger so I guess you could say that I don't know how I should be treated. If that even makes any sense. He wants things from me that currently, in my state of mind, I can't give him. I never got help from the whole abuse thing so getting close to someone in a physical way just freaks me out right now and brings back memories that I don't/can't deal with right now. He gets angry that I don't want to take things to the next level and that I push him away. But for some reason I understand why he gets so mad. He doesn't know the reasons why I don't want to go further with him and I guess thats my fault. I can't bring myself to tell him and I don't think I ever will. Because I push him away he gets mad and then one thing leads to another and then...well you can figure out the rest.
If you really love him you'll sit down and talk to him about it. Ask why he's angry, tell him that you love him and that you want to be with him.
You need to tell him what you told me and let him ask questions. Cry on his shirt and hold him close...tell him that you need to talk to him.
If he's hitting you because he's a douche, then fuck him. There are decent guys out there and maybe you shouldn't worry about that now. Maybe you should go explore the world and follow an old childhood dream.
You need to tell him what you told me and let him ask questions. Cry on his shirt and hold him close...tell him that you need to talk to him.
If he's hitting you because he's a douche, then fuck him. There are decent guys out there and maybe you shouldn't worry about that now. Maybe you should go explore the world and follow an old childhood dream.
Don't worry about it, if you want to talk just email me at [email protected]
I don't mind helping people and I really want to help. Why won't you just leave him and live your life as a free woman.
Show hope and bring light to the masses.
I don't mind helping people and I really want to help. Why won't you just leave him and live your life as a free woman.
Show hope and bring light to the masses.
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