Venting.

[Vanzelouiz]

Like wasn't enough to loose my brother to suicide,to go through this hellish grief depression and anxiety and later have my father diagnosed with Leukemia! no wasn't enough.!
Now the banks threatening to take our property,our job our home and restaurant the only source of income we have,if we don't pay,but guess what? we have no money!
Where we all gonna go?what the hell we gonna do? How on earth ill go out find another job when i barely make it out of bed in the mornings?? My father can't work. My mother looks 20 years older it bleeds my heart to see her.she have suffered so much in this life. that tough tough life!
We all depressed frozen mummies shadows of our Former self's and life is demanding.
I feel so scared,so insecure,so unsure about the future.
All i wanted was to heal my brothers loss but every time i do a step forward life comes and slaps me in the face!
and i'm tired so so tired and brokken to even try change anything.

P.s This is a real person ,writing from a small island ,somewhere in southern Europe,not a character out of a soap opera.
And this is the strangest life ever knew.

Thank you for reading.

 

[Miriam]

Hi, sorry to hear about your brother and current situation. it sounds like you are at absolute breaking point. It breaks my heart to hear your story and that you have no support or sense of hope to retain your property or find enough employment to rebuild your life.

You just have to keep waking up in the morning determined to work hard and make opportunities happen. You can only do as much as you can! Do what you can. Make calls to banks and companies you need to make the house repayments to and apply for financial hardship. You may be able to get a 6month freeze in interest and minimal monthly payments reduced while you get yourself back on your feet. Consult with financial consultants and the hardship team at your local bank. Reach out. Apply for charity food stamps and assistance.

If you have to get a second job then extra cash might help. May I ask what country you are from? Southern Europe is quite broad. I don't know enough about your situation to give practical advice.

You sound like a strong person and a fighter. I have faith you will work hard and endure great suffering and sacrifices now for long term happiness. What ever happens, if you lose the house or can't find better work - just always keep moving forwards, keep working, keep applying for new roles. maybe make an appointment with a social worker Pych to vent properly. Remember to not put too much pressure on yourself also - you need time out and down time - do things outside of your family and work which recharge your battery.

Vent on here whenever you need to. Keep talking. I hope everything works out for you. You deserve to be unburdened and to live a life where you experience joy again. You will get your life back and find happiness once again... It's just going to take time. Grief takes time, financial burdens such as yours are crippling and there is no overnight solution. Your life is going to feel like hell for a while but you will breakthrough and it's not permanent ok x

 

[Miriam]

What about getting a business partner to put up capital for the restaurant? Remarket and rebrand. Are there any changes you can make to turn your business around? Could you source potential investors? Sorry I don't know your full story. Just ideas.