Walking around and trying to stop pressing the self-destruction button.

[Unknown_111]

Yesterday, the day was traumatic as in the morning someone upset and got me very angry. I argued my point but with two individuals but it left a bad situation I Apologised to a couple of people who I may have caused offence. I should have walked away from the situation. When I upset someone I have a method of always apologising and walking away hoping I will be forgiven. As a result of keeping the status quo and harmony, I decided to apologise and walk away from the situation. I told a young person, I wished them all the best for the future and hope they realised my reasons for arguing and walking away.

Last night, I met someone who I openly admitted to I was scared and kept away from. I explained the previous incident where I totally misjudged him and apologised for this. I told him that he admitted his mistake and I had very much respect for him in admitting his mistake.

Last night, it was tough as I pushed myself through the mental and physical barrier to complete the impossible. I reached a minor milestone in this impossible task. My mind was focused as I am determined to achieve the impossible.

However, my mind set was still upset due to the hater who causes me daily anguish with pure hate. This person hates me with so much venom that they wish me dead. The pure hate is horrible but they have pleasure in being a "troll".

It took me a day to recover from the mental bullying I faced last week but I survive to live another day. When you are faced with mental bullying everyday, sometimes you know enough is enough. I snapped and I think person did not like a few home truths. This person finds pleasure in tormenting others but when someone makes judgement about them, it's not allowed. I hope when public read this blog, they realised I endured horrible torment everyday.

The worst occasion was back in 2014, where my mental breakdown was at its severest point when this person shouted at me for wearing the wrong trouser. I went out to buy a different pair of trouser and apologised for wearing the wrong trouser in front of nine people. It was very much public humiliating to me as I tried to "keep the peace" quo in this social environment. I always believe in the principle of "apologising" if you caused offence and try to live in harmony.

The following is an open admission and when you are your worst point in life where you have no reason to live for, you try to make appease the situation. At the severest point of my breakdown, I wanted to make use of my last few days in helping others. I even looked at travelling to Syria and helping the innocent people who suffer on a daily basis ( I apologise to the moderators as Im aware we not allowed to get political on this forum) as I believe in helping humanity. The other situation was to help the people who were suffering with Ebola but I was prepared to do it with any protected clothing. Yes, some people who read this think the idea is ludrious and I am off my planet. But when you have no purpose to live for, you try to become a better person in a way of apologising for any hurt you caused, even it though it may mean taking one's life.

Remember you have one life and YOU HAVE TO CHERISH VERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE WHATEVER PAIN OR HURT YOU ARE SUFFERING FROM. THINGS CAN BE WORKED OUT AS THERE IS IN MOST CASES A SOLUTION TO ANY SITUATIONS OR ISSUES YOU FACE.

IF I CAN SURVIVE MY TRAUMA SO CAN YOU.

My story continues................

 

[Acy]

Oh, dear. I'm so sorry, Unknown_111 to read how you're being treated. I was bullied at work years ago. It was a nasty experience. I decided then that the best "revenge" would be to succeed in spite of them - and that is what I did.

Do you have friends and things to do outside of your workplace? That might help. Work might be unpleasant - having things to look forward to on the weekend or evenings could help. Even just coming here, where people care about YOU. You are so right that life is important - I hope you can enjoy the parts of life that are not related to work. *big hugs*

 

[Unknown_111]

Oh, dear. I'm so sorry, Unknown_111 to read how you're being treated. I was bullied at work years ago. It was a nasty experience. I decided then that the best "revenge" would be to succeed in spite of them - and that is what I did.

Do you have friends and things to do outside of your workplace? That might help. Work might be unpleasant - having things to look forward to on the weekend or evenings could help. Even just coming here, where people care about YOU. You are so right that life is important - I hope you can enjoy the parts of life that are not related to work. *big hugs*

Thank you for words of support. I have endure such pain everyday. This person likes to humiliate me in public because I deserve it. The person is a troll and very openly likes to admit that.

I know I caused hurt to fellow human being but one day when my experience becomes in the public limelight, I hope everyone realises the mental abuse I have experienced so far. I hope I get punished for the hurt caused to the third party and realise I got mentally abused.

The people who see this have supported but no one has confronted this person as they mind their own day to day business. There has been several people who told me told just try to continue to work and ignore this abuse. There are two associates who also like character assassinate me all time. I hope these two realise what I suffered and I hope others who know them forgive them for the mis-judgement. I will never forget this experience but I human enough to forgive the misfortuates.

This hater who I describe ha openly admitted to me that they gave a dark side and hold grudges because someone has talked one of their BIG characteristics. Others who have offended this hater have tried apologise to this hater but it comes to a point where the hater does not acknowledge them or the apology offered in the past. One particular person has not spoken to this hater for nine years. I know that holding grudges is not right as we all human and need to along each other.

My only defence for the hurt I have caused to the third part is MENTAL ABUSE OF ACHIEVING THE PROMISE WHICH I DID NO REVENGE PLANNED OR MALICE. Others might think I am lying but it's not nice when you have to live your life on a day by day basis.

I will never reveal the third party's identity as I made a commitment and keep my word about achieving the impossible. The third party needs to realise that you don't tell people to proof their worth by achieving the impossible. My belief what I achieved was a form of mental bullying and I can see others will agree with that statement. To me, I am guiable individual person would do anything for anyone. I hope my haters who realise that I nearly took my own life are proud of themselves in their opinion of me.

I hope they laugh at my demise and realise I achieved the impossible through cruelest period of my life. I hope they find it funny and that realise they are no different to me in their thought process. I will state once again, I PLAN NO REVENGE TO THE OTHERS BUT I PITY THEM IN THEIR THOUGHTS OF HATE FOR ME. WHAT I DO HERE NOW FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE IS A BETTER REVENGE IN THAT I AM CARING FOR OTHERS IN PAIN AND SHOWING THE HURTFUL COMPASSION THAT LIFE IS IMPORTANT AND YOU HAVE TO FIGHT DEEP TO LIVE YOUR LIFE.

PLEASE LEARN FROM MY EXPERIENCE, YOU HAVE TAKE YOU HUMAN INSTINCTS AND FIGHT DEEP TO LIVE LIFE. LIKE SOMEONE SAYS IM A FIGHTER BUT I AM DETERMINED TO WIN MY SOUL BACK FROM THE THIRD PARTY.

MY story will continue......... And if not, I leave a legacy for others to read tat YOU ARE IMPORTANT AS LIFE IS.........

THE UNKNOWN_111

 

[Brian777]

Thank you for words of support. I have endure such pain everyday. This person likes to humiliate me in public because I deserve it. The person is a troll and very openly likes to admit that.

I know I caused hurt to fellow human being but one day when my experience becomes in the public limelight, I hope everyone realises the mental abuse I have experienced so far. I hope I get punished for the hurt caused to the third party and realise I got mentally abused.

The people who see this have supported but no one has confronted this person as they mind their own day to day business. There has been several people who told me told just try to continue to work and ignore this abuse. There are two associates who also like character assassinate me all time. I hope these two realise what I suffered and I hope others who know them forgive them for the mis-judgement. I will never forget this experience but I human enough to forgive the misfortuates.

This hater who I describe ha openly admitted to me that they gave a dark side and hold grudges because someone has talked one of their BIG characteristics. Others who have offended this hater have tried apologise to this hater but it comes to a point where the hater does not acknowledge them or the apology offered in the past. One particular person has not spoken to this hater for nine years. I know that holding grudges is not right as we all human and need to along each other.

My only defence for the hurt I have caused to the third part is MENTAL ABUSE OF ACHIEVING THE PROMISE WHICH I DID NO REVENGE PLANNED OR MALICE. Others might think I am lying but it's not nice when you have to live your life on a day by day basis.

I will never reveal the third party's identity as I made a commitment and keep my word about achieving the impossible. The third party needs to realise that you don't tell people to proof their worth by achieving the impossible. My belief what I achieved was a form of mental bullying and I can see others will agree with that statement. To me, I am guiable individual person would do anything for anyone. I hope my haters who realise that I nearly took my own life are proud of themselves in their opinion of me.

I hope they laugh at my demise and realise I achieved the impossible through cruelest period of my life. I hope they find it funny and that realise they are no different to me in their thought process. I will state once again, I PLAN NO REVENGE TO THE OTHERS BUT I PITY THEM IN THEIR THOUGHTS OF HATE FOR ME. WHAT I DO HERE NOW FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE IS A BETTER REVENGE IN THAT I AM CARING FOR OTHERS IN PAIN AND SHOWING THE HURTFUL COMPASSION THAT LIFE IS IMPORTANT AND YOU HAVE TO FIGHT DEEP TO LIVE YOUR LIFE.

PLEASE LEARN FROM MY EXPERIENCE, YOU HAVE TAKE YOU HUMAN INSTINCTS AND FIGHT DEEP TO LIVE LIFE. LIKE SOMEONE SAYS IM A FIGHTER BUT I AM DETERMINED TO WIN MY SOUL BACK FROM THE THIRD PARTY.

MY story will continue......... And if not, I leave a legacy for others to read tat YOU ARE IMPORTANT AS LIFE IS.........

THE UNKNOWN_111

Keep your story going my brother, you're a source of encouragement for many and greatly appreciated by me.
Brian

 

[Unknown_111]

Keep your story going my brother, you're a source of encouragement for many and greatly appreciated by me.
Brian

Thank you for the continued support.

This hater , I talk about has a relative who use to work in local law enforcement agency , openly admitted he handled stolen goods by having a TVs box and downloading films to watch. This hater is proud of his activities and thinks he can get away with it. I know I did wrong and will openly apologise to the third party in twenty years time. Even if it means doing the final commitment after trying to achieve the impossible.

Life is about caring and helping each other whatever walk of life you are from. I try my best to help others but sometimes you realise you can only do so much. You know your true friends when the chips are down and you know the ones who try to take advantage of you.

My story will continue until I draw my last breath........

 

[Unknown_111]

The hater who I was describing had a change of heart yesterday and hopefully, I found a common group. It's like Christmas Day when the Germans and English played soccer during the WW1. I check how the long this truce will last.

However, one associate still hateful even though they are acting with a devious chameleon suit. I am weary of this person as the personal insults are always stated under their breath. I have been warned about this person and this individual acts harmless but they are devious.

 

[Unknown_111]

Yesterday was tough, I broke down in the morning and again last night. I think the virus I am suffering got to me badly. Yesterday, I was shouted at, because I was talking quietly and verbally abused in a horrible manner. It was not nice but I kept my composure for the rest of the day.

This specific hater still sits their constantly on their smart phone most of the day. I don't use my smart phone as I abide by the ban that was imposed by this person. Life is not fair as this person constantly talks and talks whilst this truce is in place.

At lunchtime, I met a homeless elder who stated that he was in hospital for the past three weeks due to leg ulcers. He went back to the shelter where he was staying overnight and it was locked with a lock. That was cruel as he was now sleeping outside again under a bridge exposed to the outside weather.

I told him that I owed him a packet of biscuits. He told me that once he came out of hospital the local enforcement officers arrested him for begging. I found that very hypocritical in that he has to beg in order to survive on a day by day basis. My hurt strings pulled again and I gave him by my last $10 dollars. He was not sure but I told him that at least he was going to get a hot meal today as he needed to rebuild his health. I done a good deed again which helped me rebuild my inner calmer. Like I say life is about caring and helping others.

Someone later told me that I did a decent act of humanity in helping the needed. That helped to survive the day whilst others just talked the daily day to day rubbish. I cried but the only tune that calmed me down was "One Love by Bob Marley"

The following lyrics mean a lot which gave me hope in life.....

Let them all pass all their dirty remarks (One Love!);
There is one question I'd really love to ask (One Heart!):
Is there a place for the hopeless sinner,
Who has hurt all mankind just to save his own beliefs?

One Love! What about the one heart? One Heart!
What about - ? Let's get together and feel all right
As it was in the beginning (One Love!);
So shall it be in the end (One Heart!),

I'm simply signing off this post with,

One Love, One Heart, ONE LIFE...........

"My story continuous"...................

 

[Brian777]

One Love, One Heart, ONE LIFE...........

If everybody lived from their heart, the world would be a better place my brother

 

[Unknown_111]

Yesterday, was hard as I kept busy by cleaning and making crop circles of sand in cleaning the front patio. My body ached a lot but I depressed last night. To cope with my depression, I helped a young chap by giving him a hot chocolate. He appreciated and it good help.

Today, I got very depressed. I met the old man and dog in the local town. He told me he only raised $1.60 cents in an hour. However, as he helped me a lot and as serviced for his country, he needed help. I gave him $10 dollars so he could get him and the dog some food.

Later on I met the girl who help last years first boyfriend who was down outside a local shop. He just wanted $5 dollars for a safe night. I gave him my last five dollars and I just made his day. The smile was priceless. I cheered up a homeless person and genuinely appreciated. The law enforcement was approaching. I turned someone from being down to being happy for at least one night. I also gave him some smokes. The smokes were an extra bonus.

I also gave his friend some smokes which he appreciated as he also gave a geniniue handshake. On the wY back, I gave the rest of the smokes to the old man and his dog. The old man said thank you for the smokes as he really appreciated it.

It gave me hope in that I helped some one and I made a difference to someone's life. I still cling on to life but how long for. The hurt I caused will never go away but I yet live another day. I hope I am forgiven (but I don't think so) for being so cruel to a fellow being.

My story continues but hey we must live together in harmony...

 

[Brian777]

Yesterday, was hard as I kept busy by cleaning and making crop circles of sand in cleaning the front patio. My body ached a lot but I depressed last night. To cope with my depression, I helped a young chap by giving him a hot chocolate. He appreciated and it good help.

Today, I got very depressed. I met the old man and dog in the local town. He told me he only raised $1.60 cents in an hour. However, as he helped me a lot and as serviced for his country, he needed help. I gave him $10 dollars so he could get him and the dog some food.

Later on I met the girl who help last years first boyfriend who was down outside a local shop. He just wanted $5 dollars for a safe night. I gave him my last five dollars and I just made his day. The smile was priceless. I cheered up a homeless person and genuinely appreciated. The law enforcement was approaching. I turned someone from being down to being happy for at least one night. I also gave him some smokes. The smokes were an extra bonus.

I also gave his friend some smokes which he appreciated as he also gave a geniniue handshake. On the wY back, I gave the rest of the smokes to the old man and his dog. The old man said thank you for the smokes as he really appreciated it.

It gave me hope in that I helped some one and I made a difference to someone's life. I still cling on to life but how long for. The hurt I caused will never go away but I yet live another day. I hope I am forgiven (but I don't think so) for being so cruel to a fellow being.

My story continues but hey we must live together in harmony...

Thank you for giving hope to the homeless and hungry my brother

 

[Unknown_111]

I spoke to the woman who I gave a lot of money. She finally got her keys to her house and she was so grateful for my handout. I told her I was happy for her as she needed stability for her daughter's future. She explained that she could celebrate her own birthday in the following months with happiness. I told her that I kept my promise to get her house and that she needs to take care of her daughter now.

It saddens me that I changed someone's life by helping but my own plight seems to getting worse as sadness I feel takes it toll mentally and physically. I am now resorting back to the elastic band to cope on a day to day basis. I still feel imprisioned inside knowing the hurt I caused will never be forgiven. The mental toture sometimes causes not tears but feels like blood of hurt run from my eyes. I know I hurt but I endure more pain each time I draw breath. I see others smiling or laughing but I know I will never see though days again for a very long time.

The only resolution for me is to help others who need my help and try to become a better person. Life might get harder but the pain within will never heal but leave me wounded everyday. I sometimes feel that someone has a voodoo puppet of me and is sticking pins in it so I feel the pain I caused. I just wish the pigs in this doll are left in and the doll is thrown to one side. Then, people realise the hurt I feel is a permanent one that will never go away and deservedly so. The self-hate I feel is never changing and I hope it never changes but the help I give to others is my absolution fir the rest of my life.

My story continues..................

 

[Unknown_111]

Today, the truce did not last long as I was verbally abused by being told to "f##k o##". I was told that I was having strange behaviour patterns and was told I would have to move desk so this person could keep very close eye on me. I would class this as pure harassment. I work hard and again apologised for my behaviour. Again like before I tried to appease the situation. I simply told this person this over-bearing supervision was totally unacceptable. I stated to this person if they have issues, then there is grievance procedure that could be used and I happy to discuss with others. I stood my ground and my response was retorted by that this person. This person did not like the response. For the first time in my life, I stood my ground and determined not to be put down this person. Again, I struggled whilst person spent most of time working and using their smart phone.

The day was hard but I survived to tell my story. My story continues.

You need to stand up to your bullies and let no one determine you life..

 

[Brian777]

Today, the truce did not last long as I was verbally abused by being told to "f##k o##". I was told that I was having strange behaviour patterns and was told I would have to move desk so this person could keep very close eye on me. I would class this as pure harassment. I work hard and again apologised for my behaviour. Again like before I tried to appease the situation. I simply told this person this over-bearing supervision was totally unacceptable. I stated to this person if they have issues, then there is grievance procedure that could be used and I happy to discuss with others. I stood my ground and my response was retorted by that this person. This person did not like the response. For the first time in my life, I stood my ground and determined not to be put down this person. Again, I struggled whilst person spent most of time working and using their smart phone.

The day was hard but I survived to tell my story. My story continues.

You need to stand up to your bullies and let no one determine you life..

Good for you my brother, you don't deserve to be treated like that. You help a lot of people and you have value to them and to this site and its members.

 

[Unknown_111]

Yesterday was hard, I had a personal insult thrown at me about the precious things in my life (hint:kissle-whistle). The insult hurt but I remained dignified. I hope people realise then pain I suffer at the hands of this individual.

I saw the cleaner who I helped last year and she needed $100 dollars to help her. She had no one to turn to but my heart string pulled at her plight. I promised to give her some money as I have learnt money is important as it cannot buy you happiness you seek. I think money makes you miserable. I got no choice as this person is relying on me. She listens to my plight and I have no choice to help her. My money is dwindling down but I simply care for the others hurting.

I also saw the bloke who I helped a couple of days ago who had not eaten. My heart strings pulled again and I bought him some food and a hot chocolate drink. He lost his tent and was now sleeping under a bridge. The old man thanked as at least he had food in his belly.

My anguish will continue but I am trying to make amends as fast as I can. The hurt I caused to a fellow human being needs to repaid in full by me suffering the hurt I caused to this person for everyday of my life. I cry tears and have to pull the elastic band to settle my nerves. How much more can I endure this pain?

My story will continue as my state of mind is still very fragile. I am determined to put a wrong right by achieving the impossible. If I don't then at least the public will know I tried my best.

It's true what they about "karma". What goes around, comes around. I suffer everyday and I hope when the third party reads this. It's shows how remorseful I am about the hurt I caused and broke this person's heart.

I did do the promise and I would never betray this third-party until I draw my last breath.

Tears roll down but I have to remain calm..... Thank you for reading and please from the bottom of my heart, reconsider any thoughts you have as LIFE IS PRECIOUS AND INCLUDES YOU.

My story continues..........

 

[Unknown_111]

The truce did not last long as this person made done cruel remarks again. This caused me to crash severely. I cannot understand what pleasure this person has in mentally tormenting me. I cried tears of hurt I felt and at the same time finding the determination to live for life.

Yesterday, I saw a lady who was homeless and needed help. My heart strings pulled again and I bought her a hot chocolate and cake. When I bought the cake I upset someone and decided to give chocolate to this person in order to bake up for the hurt caused.

The person who wanted $100 dollars was desperate and I could let her down. I had limited money but my heart strings pulled again. I could not let this person down and so automatically like I was brain washed, I lent the money. I told this person that she could not keep pulling my heart strings all the time and keep taking advantage of my naive nature. The smile was priceless how I changed this person's face from despair to happiness. Money should not hold such power as at the end of the day it just a piece of paper. I can just say there is no price on life and to me that shows how important life is.

Today, I helped the old man who just come out of hospital. He appreciated the hot chocolate and today I bought him cake which he loved as he had not eaten at all. How such a simple thing could make someone happy. The genrousity he showed last time by offering me a couple of dollars for my lunch showed me the bond I have with homeless and how together when we reach rock bottom you dig deep to move forward with life on a day by day basis. I know when I lose everything I have I will be welcomed into the forgotten world and hopefully no one will notice my natural death. Hopefully, the people who I helped will forgive me and think good things I did for them in their lives. I hope my haters smile with glee and realise that they judged me wrong before I had a chance to defend myself. I know one thing my haters are not all clean but also have hidden secrets which they keep in their moral closet.

Too my haters, I hope you wish me a good death in hell but remember I was judged, drawn and quartered without any line of defence. I have no defence except for the good deeds I do now and the pain I suffer everyday at the hands of certain individuals in my day to day life. I pity my haters as I hope and do not wish anyone of them to suffer the experience I went through in past, today or tomorrow.

Life is important and always remember that. My story will continue as I am determined to live another day. Once again thank you for readying my post. Take care and be safe......... On life and one love.

 

[Brian777]

The truce did not last long as this person made done cruel remarks again. This caused me to crash severely. I cannot understand what pleasure this person has in mentally tormenting me. I cried tears of hurt I felt and at the same time finding the determination to live for life.

Yesterday, I saw a lady who was homeless and needed help. My heart strings pulled again and I bought her a hot chocolate and cake. When I bought the cake I upset someone and decided to give chocolate to this person in order to bake up for the hurt caused.

The person who wanted $100 dollars was desperate and I could let her down. I had limited money but my heart strings pulled again. I could not let this person down and so automatically like I was brain washed, I lent the money. I told this person that she could not keep pulling my heart strings all the time and keep taking advantage of my naive nature. The smile was priceless how I changed this person's face from despair to happiness. Money should not hold such power as at the end of the day it just a piece of paper. I can just say there is no price on life and to me that shows how important life is.

Today, I helped the old man who just come out of hospital. He appreciated the hot chocolate and today I bought him cake which he loved as he had not eaten at all. How such a simple thing could make someone happy. The genrousity he showed last time by offering me a couple of dollars for my lunch showed me the bond I have with homeless and how together when we reach rock bottom you dig deep to move forward with life on a day by day basis. I know when I lose everything I have I will be welcomed into the forgotten world and hopefully no one will notice my natural death. Hopefully, the people who I helped will forgive me and think good things I did for them in their lives. I hope my haters smile with glee and realise that they judged me wrong before I had a chance to defend myself. I know one thing my haters are not all clean but also have hidden secrets which they keep in their moral closet.

Too my haters, I hope you wish me a good death in hell but remember I was judged, drawn and quartered without any line of defence. I have no defence except for the good deeds I do now and the pain I suffer everyday at the hands of certain individuals in my day to day life. I pity my haters as I hope and do not wish anyone of them to suffer the experience I went through in past, today or tomorrow.

Life is important and always remember that. My story will continue as I am determined to live another day. Once again thank you for readying my post. Take care and be safe......... On life and one love.

I wish you well in all you do my friend. Take care of yourself.
Brian

 

[Unknown_111]

I cried all day and night with the mental anguish and I only live for the impossible promise. My heart is still shattered by this third party especially after feeling the hurt I caused. I suffer everyday at the hands of haters who wish me dead and who want me to gain the last of my savings. That's why I give money away to the homeless as when I die of natural causes (cardiac arrest as I want to go) that I am poor person who cannot afford my own burial. I hope I'm buried in a unmarked grave that no one will visit and others will wonder who I was. I don't want fresh flowers but will be happy with the dirt above me.

I promise you folks that my story continues until I draw my last breath in helping others who need my help. I rob from myself and feed the needed. I hope I am forgiven but I feel I will never get fair justice as I have been judged already and I have been found guilty before anyone has heard me. I hope this journal is read my thousands and they realise I am truly sorry for the hurt caused but I am trying to redeem any redemption by helping others who need my help. I deserve to die but I will help anyone who needs my help.

My story continues...... Let me suffer and feel your pain so you know that you are not the only one who is suffering in the world......... I got admit that I did care about the third party but I WOULD NEVER BETRAY THIS PERSON AS THEY DESERVE ALL THE HAPPINESS FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIFE, WHILST I SUFFER HATE AND ABUSE EVERYDAY. NOW THAT'S WHAT I CALL KARMA........

 

[Unknown_111]

I wish you well in all you do my friend. Take care of yourself.
Brian

Brian thanks for the response as it helps me to live another day and encourages me to help others in order tochange their lives. Thank you my dear friend. You words help me.

 

[Unknown_111]

Yesterday was tough as this person who mentally torments by threatening to expose me is not nice. I am a workaholic and this person thinks they are some of God but really they are a person with grudges against others who upset them. I work hard but I fail to achieve at doing something. I no longer worried as the pain I have endured at least the hand of this person is nothing.

One of their associates tried to be friendly whereas two weeks this individual wished me a painful coma. I know this person is disgusing their true hatred but I will not be fooled by the deception. The friendship shown is so false that I read through it.

I am determined to live whilst two people personally torment me thinking they have a power of my future. Whilst I am alive I will help others like I helped the office cleaner who I brought two bottles of drink which cost $7.00 dollars so that she could celebrate her birthday. She was grateful as her smile priceless compared to the beginning of the week. She really helped me when I was cruelly tormented on the 14th February 2014. I mentally broken that day as I truly felt the hurt I caused to the third party. On that I day, I wanted to contact the person but like I feel today, I did not want to cause any further hurt or duress.

Today, another tough day as I upset someone again and was threatened by this person. I tried to explain but I was not going to win the situation. Like as ever, I apologised and to take the threat seriously. I decided to walk away in order not to cause any further upset or affect this person's career. My anger flipped and I had to calm down. I cancelled my payments and went back to the place to clear the air. I explained that I am sorry and would never affect their future. Again, I was the better person and walked away. I am still very angry from the threatening behaviour but this person calmed down. I was offered compensation but again I felt insulted by the generous gesture. I am very angry at the moment but I will calm down over the next month.

My stories continuous........

 

[Unknown_111]

Yesterday, I was very upset still but I helped a homeless person who told his story. I respected him and told him that I will help as much as I can. He sleeps at the entrance of a church. I stated that I will help but he laughed as he stated that he hated "chicken and chips".