When I'm finally alone, those elusive moments of just me by myself...
Get my drink on, smoke inside and start deconstructing various movies or concert dvd's. Think about shit. Try and get some sleep, which never happens. Try and slow myself down enough to see the underlying secrets of this life, and what they entail. Think about ways of using my physical surroundings to create messages through various mediums, to bridge that gap that has us all convinced that we're not one whole, to shine a light through the lie that has us so convinced we're seperate and alone individuals, as opposed to being different colors signatures in the one beam of light.
I like to read, everything. I like to listen, to everything. I like to watch, everything. Find my center. Prepare for the next move, because it's coming. I like to hack my mind. There are secrets that are rarely seen in this life, I like to hear them whisper in my ear. What else..
I rarely walk around naked, because Im quite used to my body at this point. I only find that thrilling with another person around. I put off things like laundry, eating, dishes...bland things. I like to peel back my skull and walk in other worlds. I seem to like forgetting to flick my cigarette ash and have it fall down my shirt.
I like to think about the IMAX film I would make if I had access to the tools. Sometimes I like to just stare at the wall, I'm thinking about something but to this day I'm not sure what.
That's about it, I just think. And use different methods of thinking differently, and then think about that. And black out my thinking, and just feel. Let it happen to me, let it take over me. And then report back my findings.
I like to try and recall that place, where we were preflesh, it's in there, its in all of us, we were there. But we forgot it. It just takes a word to trigger the memory. We were there.
I just think. Decode life and spirit, all the thing your average joe forgets about, when they're running in the world. I do that when I get a chance to be alone. It looks like I'm doing nothing, but that's because I'm outside of my body right then, and nobody has eyes capable of seeing my soul at this moment.
I like to travel
