I know questions like this have been asked before, but I was curious what time of year if any are you more suicidal than others, and how do you deal with it in positive ways? I just googled the question 'What time of year do most suicides occur?' and the answer I saw was in Spring time, like Apr, May, and June(In the Northern Hemisphere). I myself definitely have certain suicidal patterns that appear to me throughout the year, I will give my example.
I have had two major attempts on my life, and one was in December(Winter) and the other was in May(Spring). Although I generally feel depressed and suicidal throughout the whole year, there are times when I normally do a little better or a bit worse. Last June, I had a breakdown and went to see my doctor for being suicidal. He said to me he was surprised I get more suicidal around May/June, because, "Winter is when most people feel depressed or suicidal." And at the time, I was thinking he was and is full of shit because I've felt bad and have known others who get suicidal more in warm months than the colder ones. In other words, I believe it has more to do with a person's immediate circumstances on if they feel and will act on suicide than what time of year it is, even though the time of year still affects them.
It may sound silly, but my reasoning is this; Although I will act on suicide any time of the year if things get bad enough, I don't really want to do it in the winter because:
1. People will have to deal with my passing/burial/funeral in cold and snow. Who wants to do that?
2. People will have to move my stuff out of where I live in the cold and snow. That sucks, who wants to move in the winter.
3. Suicide at Christmas and/or around the holidays? Ya, that would be great. What a crappy burden for me to put on others, I can't do that.
4. My method I'm planning on has to be done outdoors. I'd much rather do it on a warm, sunny day(or have more courage to do it) than on a crappy, cold weather day.
So right now it's January and I'm feeling better than I have, well, probably since last January. But I guarantee as soon as March, April, and especially May comes around, I'm going to feel worse again. The B-day(August) and September will also be bad too for me. So do you have any seasonal patterns, what do you think?
I have had two major attempts on my life, and one was in December(Winter) and the other was in May(Spring). Although I generally feel depressed and suicidal throughout the whole year, there are times when I normally do a little better or a bit worse. Last June, I had a breakdown and went to see my doctor for being suicidal. He said to me he was surprised I get more suicidal around May/June, because, "Winter is when most people feel depressed or suicidal." And at the time, I was thinking he was and is full of shit because I've felt bad and have known others who get suicidal more in warm months than the colder ones. In other words, I believe it has more to do with a person's immediate circumstances on if they feel and will act on suicide than what time of year it is, even though the time of year still affects them.
It may sound silly, but my reasoning is this; Although I will act on suicide any time of the year if things get bad enough, I don't really want to do it in the winter because:
1. People will have to deal with my passing/burial/funeral in cold and snow. Who wants to do that?
2. People will have to move my stuff out of where I live in the cold and snow. That sucks, who wants to move in the winter.
3. Suicide at Christmas and/or around the holidays? Ya, that would be great. What a crappy burden for me to put on others, I can't do that.
4. My method I'm planning on has to be done outdoors. I'd much rather do it on a warm, sunny day(or have more courage to do it) than on a crappy, cold weather day.
So right now it's January and I'm feeling better than I have, well, probably since last January. But I guarantee as soon as March, April, and especially May comes around, I'm going to feel worse again. The B-day(August) and September will also be bad too for me. So do you have any seasonal patterns, what do you think?
