I am by no means trying to dissuade anyone from pursuing therapy, because I know it does help a lot of people. These are just my thoughts.
So all my life, whenever I've opened up to someone, they always say the same thing: "Please consider therapy." I know that they mean well, but I have always viewed it as their way of making me someone else's problem, someone who gets paid to deal with this kinda shit. And that's where my issue lies. How can a therapist not be patronizing to their patients? I can't see myself being able to open up to a person who I know is only listening because it's their job and they're getting paid. I'll wonder if they hate their job, if they hate me, if they're thinking about what they're going to have for dinner while I'm supposed to be telling them all of my problems.
And can a therapist really understand me, just because they have a degree in psychology? Just because they know how to classify me with a bunch of psychologic jargon and dissect and analyze me, that means they can understand me? Just because a book told them what depression is doesn't mean shit imo. What if I start thinking my therapist is only a therapist to make themselves feel better about themselves?
Am I all wrong about therapy?
Please tell me I'm just being pessimistic, because I might need help of the professional variety. But I can't see myself being able to seek therapy with my current opinions...
So all my life, whenever I've opened up to someone, they always say the same thing: "Please consider therapy." I know that they mean well, but I have always viewed it as their way of making me someone else's problem, someone who gets paid to deal with this kinda shit. And that's where my issue lies. How can a therapist not be patronizing to their patients? I can't see myself being able to open up to a person who I know is only listening because it's their job and they're getting paid. I'll wonder if they hate their job, if they hate me, if they're thinking about what they're going to have for dinner while I'm supposed to be telling them all of my problems.
And can a therapist really understand me, just because they have a degree in psychology? Just because they know how to classify me with a bunch of psychologic jargon and dissect and analyze me, that means they can understand me? Just because a book told them what depression is doesn't mean shit imo. What if I start thinking my therapist is only a therapist to make themselves feel better about themselves?
Am I all wrong about therapy?
Please tell me I'm just being pessimistic, because I might need help of the professional variety. But I can't see myself being able to seek therapy with my current opinions...