My junior year (an important year for college applications) I transferred to a really selective private college prep academy and my final year grades made me want to commit suicide. Everytime I happened to think about those grades I have the overwhelming feeling of wanting to kill myself. All colleges will see those grades and how disgusting I failed. My mom keeps telling me it's not that important but I know she's saying that just to make me feel better. Everyone knows how disgusting those kinds of grades are and I just want to erase them from my record but I can't and thinking about how I can't makes me want to kill myself again.