Why do I keep ruining everything

[dodoman]

I am in a bad situation. I've written it out before so I don't want to keep repeating the same shit, but I can barely breath right now. I know this won't be the smoothest read. My anxiety has me shaking. I don't know why this happens to me. everyone else can face their problems. I take one look at my problems and get reduced to a nervous wreak. They're not small problems, but they started out small. and I let them keep snowballing until I'm left behind. I hate myself. I wish I could just die. But I can't because that would hurt other people. This isn't fair. I don't need anything else. I don't need accolades or a career or friends or anything, I just don't ever want to feel like this again. but I know I will.

 

[Forgotten_Man]

I am right there with you I know how much panic and misery this happens and yet I keep failing. I am not sure how to help but I just wanted you to know I am experiencing a really similar problem

 

[dodoman]

I am right there with you I know how much panic and misery this happens and yet I keep failing. I am not sure how to help but I just wanted you to know I am experiencing a really similar problem

I appreciate it. I don't understand why this happens. I don't understand how normal people just... move on. That seems like something out of a story to me. Just neutrally examine your faults? wtf.

 

[Forgotten_Man]

I appreciate it. I don't understand why this happens. I don't understand how normal people just... move on. That seems like something out of a story to me. Just neutrally examine your faults? wtf.

I think other people are just better at hiding it and have other methods for removing the stress. There are many downsides to relationships but one upside is you have someone to help you out and that can make a lot of difference.

 

[Innocent Forever]

Good for you for your awareness! I'm sorry it's so hard....
Is there any way you can reach out for professional help in dealing with it?

 

[Walker]

Hope you're feeling better by now and are back on your feet.

 

[dodoman]

Good for you for your awareness! I'm sorry it's so hard....
Is there any way you can reach out for professional help in dealing with it?

I've started seeing a school counselor, but I've only been one time. I still have no idea if it will help.

 

[dodoman]

Hope you're feeling better by now and are back on your feet.

I feel a little better but I'm not doing better at all. Not really sure what to do. Thank you though.

 

[Innocent Forever]

Good for you for reaching out! Hope it'll help you. Until then, you've got all of us on here to share with.