Safety & Support
So I was really excited to meet up with someone for the first time today the person kept on talking about things and getting me all excited about meeting up what we would do how things would go and I was like yes even if things don't work out between us and I was keeping things on the down low. It was going to be a wonderful time an adventure to remember and then the other person is a no show and now I cant stop crying I hate this feeling and then I felt like a losers on top of everything waiting for the person to show up and slowly coming to the realization that they were not going to come. Why build me up and get up my expectations and then not show up why hurt someone that way give them something to look forward to doing give them something to give them hope of having an amazing time that you can remember for the rest of your life. Then No words no nothing it hurts last thing I heard we were on and then silence ever since no communication from them whatsoever. Why if you didn't want to get together did you even ask me out or if plans had to change why didn't you let me know I would have understood this hurts so bad. So now I get to sit here and cry and feel worse then ever so lonely stupid and worthless. I am so sick of being hurt by people. I am so sick of life's disappointments. I just wanted to have something fun and nice happen to me for a change why make me feel this way I would have better off never having the expectation that to be brought so low now. I am so gosh darn hurt I knew I was going to get myself hurt why did I leave myself open to be hurt again. I should never put myself out there again all it does is lead to heartache and disappointment and I just cant bear this feeling of hurt I hate being hurt over and over again. You sent me to the highest of highs to the lowest of lows. I don't need a long term relationship or any real relationship if things just hadn't worked out that would have been fine but this just kills me with hurt.