So I'm not the only one, huh? I've been confiding in a friend/relative for the past 9-10 months about my depression and she's provided me with a lot of support. But I too noticed that since a few months ago she has pulled away and the only thing I can remember being different is that I mentioned that I wanted to leave this world. But now I regret that. She's still shows me some compassion (and I'll take these little bits as I get it), but only when I ask for it, and somehow comes across as if she's obligated to check up on me.
But I can't completely understand why someone would do this. In some ways I expect that these people (friends and non-professionals who support us) have no idea how to deal with this, but don't want to tell us directly. On the other hand, I had a cousin commit suicide some years ago and just prior to that, she had been emailing me with many deep questions such as if I understand the meaning of life and what our purpose is here, etc. I never placed her as depressed and never saw anything suicidal coming, but had that thought crossed my mind, I would've done anything possible to support her and prevent it. We're all different I guess.