or will it be me face first in the mud after a LONG jump, just when i try to rid myself of this bad emotion i had a tragic nightmare that i feel is real, one of my dearest friends is in pain crying, i feel that pain i think, i cant stand it, i already have my own to deal with in which i get little help im tearing up each time i think about it i cant stand it,,,, i feel my fall is near :sad: