Wishful thinking

[starryeyed]

Ring someone pls

 

[MoAnamCara]

thank you all for your support yesterday :cry: It meant/means a lot. It was/is rough.

 

[MoAnamCara]

Seems like here we go again today. Ugh. Sad, lonely, tired. Same shit, different day and wishing someone would do something. Don't know why its important for others to give a shit. I could and want to scream. Just push me, dare me.

 

[starryeyed]

No pushing.
Hugs.must be something in the air

 

[Stranger1]

Hey Mo, No pushing here.. Just love and careing..You are in a bad way and need some help..We are here for you..Please don't harm yourself..It would be devestating not just here but in RL also..You are a friendly old soul...Tell us how we can help you..

 

[MoAnamCara]

I wish I knew the answer to that stranger, but thanks and to starryeyed too. I won't harm myself badly if I do something as I have someone I need to look after. But for today I can't cope. I have noone to talk with, I am building a resentment and anger inside which isn't good nor something I relish feeling. I don't like this going around in circles thing, I don't want to be this way. I don't know what else to say just that I am sorry.

 

[MoAnamCara]

So here we go - the dreaded dark of nighttime and the return of thoughts.

I wish they'd take a hike, I wish I could stop my mind from going there. I wish I could just stop my mind, fullstop.

But the thoughts are tempting, too. How selfish am I?

Ah, who cares, am talking to the wall. Need to keep to myself.

How much of what we think do we ever share with others? Isn't it better that way sometimes?

I need to pull back again, I think.

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Sick of this, sick of me.