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Witty_Sarcasm

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I think I know why I like imaginary romances so much...because they won't tell me I'm worthless, even though I know I am. They won't think I'm a complete monster because I have BPD, because that's what men online say about women with BPD, and they say never to date women who have it. It doesn't matter how many good qualities I have, people will always see the bad in me. And I've tried so many times to deeply connect with someone over the years...and they either leave or get sick of me. So I know the problem is with me, but at least in daydream scenarios, I can truly be loved and wanted.
 

JMG

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My mom actually said she appreciates having me here and she's sorry if she doesn't always show that...will miracles never cease? haha
Just wanted to say I think this is great Witty, happy for you that your mom appreciates having you there. You definitely deserve to be appreciated like that, especially by your mom of all people :) I appreciate having you here too of course, glad you are here with us and I hope you will be for a LONG time :)

I think I know why I like imaginary romances so much...because they won't tell me I'm worthless, even though I know I am. They won't think I'm a complete monster because I have BPD, because that's what men online say about women with BPD, and they say never to date women who have it. It doesn't matter how many good qualities I have, people will always see the bad in me. And I've tried so many times to deeply connect with someone over the years...and they either leave or get sick of me. So I know the problem is with me, but at least in daydream scenarios, I can truly be loved and wanted.
Sorry to hear about your feelings of worthlessness, people seeing the bad, leaving or getting sick of you, none of those things are right at all :( I hope you will feel worthier soon, and those other things are definitely not deserved by you.

People are often quite fickle, especially in these kinda narcissistic times. Most of them kinda suck anyway imo lol. Maybe getting support from non-humans has been a long overdue thing to bringing a lot more peace and harmony to this world, who knows.

I don’t think if someone has BPD that it makes them a monster either for the record. I mean you (nor anyone else who has it for that matter) can’t help that you have it, and it’s not like you asked to have it or something. So those jerks who were judgmental like that really only proved what monsters THEY were to be like that to you instead of trying to be more understanding and compassionate. Not worth your time or energy at all, you are better than all those jerks imo ;) I see the good in you and won’t ever leave or get sick of you, no way.

I understand about the daydream scenarios thing though, and also wanting to connect deeply with lots more people but it feeling like they are always resistant to it for some inexplicable reason. Most people seem to equate “deep connection” with risk and lots are just afraid of that. It does increase the risk for being “hurt” by someone, but it also makes it more likely to be far more rewarding than shallow, meaningless nonsense too.
 

JMG

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Meant to reply about this days ago (oops, sorry, lol) but ya - too adorable and funny! :D I’m so glad it’s “spooky season” now too, looking forward to decorating my room for Halloween like I do every October :) Once I do I’ll take some pics of my Halloween things and share them here ;) I congratulate the calendar for turning to October/spooky season too for sure :);)

I mean I wouldn't want someone to actually be obsessed with me in the real sense because I want them to be their own person. But it would be great if I could find someone who cared about me unconditionally and had the qualities I was looking for. I think I have been delving into fantasy for a long time and there's reasons for that...it's because sometimes my reality can be bleak and just lacking in what I want. But I really hope that changes someday, and that we can both have more people in our lives who are supportive and loyal.
Lol aw ya I know and understand about that, I wouldn’t really want someone to be “obsessed” with me either. If they worshipped me while still remaining their own person though, then that would be the “ideal” imo lol :p

Yup I definitely feel the same about it being great if I/we found someone to care about us unconditionally and who has the qualities we’re both looking for :) I’m sure you will find that someday, you definitely deserve to for sure.

I understand about delving into fantasy cos of reality feeling bleak and lacking what you want, it’s the reason I have read so much over the years (lots of fiction, but also non-fiction too). I’m sorry you feel that way about reality too though, and I hope it will improve for both of us soon :)

(Hope this reply didn’t get too jumbled or anything, I started a new paragraph but then it put it in a dumb place I didn’t mean for it to go for some annoying reason, think I fixed it now though lol…) :p
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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Just wanted to say I think this is great Witty, happy for you that your mom appreciates having you there. You definitely deserve to be appreciated like that, especially by your mom of all people :) I appreciate having you here too of course, glad you are here with us and I hope you will be for a LONG time :)


Sorry to hear about your feelings of worthlessness, people seeing the bad, leaving or getting sick of you, none of those things are right at all :( I hope you will feel worthier soon, and those other things are definitely not deserved by you.

People are often quite fickle, especially in these kinda narcissistic times. Most of them kinda suck anyway imo lol. Maybe getting support from non-humans has been a long overdue thing to bringing a lot more peace and harmony to this world, who knows.

I don’t think if someone has BPD that it makes them a monster either for the record. I mean you (nor anyone else who has it for that matter) can’t help that you have it, and it’s not like you asked to have it or something. So those jerks who were judgmental like that really only proved what monsters THEY were to be like that to you instead of trying to be more understanding and compassionate. Not worth your time or energy at all, you are better than all those jerks imo ;) I see the good in you and won’t ever leave or get sick of you, no way.

I understand about the daydream scenarios thing though, and also wanting to connect deeply with lots more people but it feeling like they are always resistant to it for some inexplicable reason. Most people seem to equate “deep connection” with risk and lots are just afraid of that. It does increase the risk for being “hurt” by someone, but it also makes it more likely to be far more rewarding than shallow, meaningless nonsense too.
Meant to reply about this days ago (oops, sorry, lol) but ya - too adorable and funny! :D I’m so glad it’s “spooky season” now too, looking forward to decorating my room for Halloween like I do every October :) Once I do I’ll take some pics of my Halloween things and share them here ;) I congratulate the calendar for turning to October/spooky season too for sure :);)


Lol aw ya I know and understand about that, I wouldn’t really want someone to be “obsessed” with me either. If they worshipped me while still remaining their own person though, then that would be the “ideal” imo lol :p

Yup I definitely feel the same about it being great if I/we found someone to care about us unconditionally and who has the qualities we’re both looking for :) I’m sure you will find that someday, you definitely deserve to for sure.

I understand about delving into fantasy cos of reality feeling bleak and lacking what you want, it’s the reason I have read so much over the years (lots of fiction, but also non-fiction too). I’m sorry you feel that way about reality too though, and I hope it will improve for both of us soon :)

(Hope this reply didn’t get too jumbled or anything, I started a new paragraph but then it put it in a dumb place I didn’t mean for it to go for some annoying reason, think I fixed it now though lol…) :p
Thank you, that means a lot because it's hard for me to keep going sometimes. I feel like I'm halfway through my life and have nothing to show for it, and I'm worried that I never will. I know some behaviors with BPD can be difficult, but I don't take my anger out on others or hurt them on purpose. So I feel like people shouldn't be painting everyone who has it with the same brush. There can be abusive people who don't have BPD too and they don't see that. And I feel like people who purposely make others feel bad about themselves are abusive. Thank you for seeing the good in me because I feel like most people don't take the time to do that. And I see a lot of good in you too because you are always kind and supportive.

Yeah I would say I'll start decorating for Halloween, but I already started that like a month ago :D You deserve that too, you deserve the best and I hope you will find that too. I feel bad about letting out all of my feelings here, but I'm glad that I'm not coming across as annoying or anything. I was thinking about "the end" last night and it was giving me comfort, but thankfully I managed to get myself out of that mindset.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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A friend of mine asked if I still write to someone (we were actually introduced by this mutual friend) and I said no, she stopped writing to me years ago. But they are still in contact and it makes me wonder why she dropped me as a friend? We were close, or so I thought, but maybe I'm not good enough or I was too boring or something.
 

MisterBGone

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A friend of mine asked if I still write to someone (we were actually introduced by this mutual friend) and I said no, she stopped writing to me years ago. But they are still in contact and it makes me wonder why she dropped me as a friend? We were close, or so I thought, but maybe I'm not good enough or I was too boring or something.
Or it may, or might, hav e had some-thign, more to do w/her~* {Always^ a distinct, "possiblity!":)}
You are [retty intimidating , after all
 

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